I would have sunk far deeper, I believe, to obtain what I earned, for
there were delightful moments of mutually absorbing discussions, only
too quickly interrupted by Mr. Whitely or others of the party breaking
in on our conversation. What was equal happiness to me was the
association of you in my mind with the noblest of music. I can never
hear certain movements of those operas without your image coming before
me as clearly as if I saw your reflection in a mirror. And from that
time one of my keenest pleasures has been to beg tickets from the
musical critic of our staff, whenever one of the trilogy is to be
given, and sit through the opera dreaming of those hours. I could write
here every word you uttered, but what especially impressed itself upon
my memory was something called out by the fate of Brunhilde. As we
stood in the lobby waiting for the carriages, at the end of Die
Walküre, you withdrew a little, as if still feeling the beauty and
tragedy of the last act too deeply to take part in the chit-chat with
which the rest of the party beguiled the time. I stood near you, but,
respecting your mood, was silent too, until you finally broke the pause
by saying, “I do not know whether it is Wagner’s music or because
Brunhilde appeals to me, but I always feel that I have suffered as she
does. It almost makes me believe in the theory of metempsychosis.”
“Is it so much consciousness of a past, Miss Walton,” I suggested, “as
prescience of the future? Woman’s story is so unvaryingly that of
self-sacrifice for love that I should suppose Brunhilde’s fate would
appeal to the sex as a prophecy rather than as a memory.”
“Her punishment could have been far worse.”
“Left a defenseless prey to the first comer?”
“But surrounded by fire, so that the first comer must be a brave man.”
“Do you value courage so highly?”
“Yes. The truly brave, I think, cannot be mean, and without meanness
there must be honor. I almost envy Brunhilde her walls of fire, which
put to absolute proof any man who sought her. The most successful of
men; the most intellectually brilliant, may be—By what can we to-day
test courage and honor?”
“There is as much as ever, Miss Walton. Is it no gain that courage has
become moral rather than physical?”
“Is it no loss that of all the men I know, there is not one of whom I
can say with certainty, ‘He is a brave man’?”
Our numbers were called at this point, and the conversation was never
continued. Every word you had said recalled to me my former friend, and
I understood your repugnance for anything cowardly.
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