“She is lying here, my bride,” he said. “She gave me the betrothal kiss a
few hours ago, and her father has promised me his blessing. She lies and
waits for me to come and share her white bed.”
And Gösta lifted up the lifeless form in his strong arms.
“Home to Ekeby with her!” he cried. “Now she is mine. In the snow-drift
I have found her; no one shall take her from me. We will not wake them
in there. What has she to do behind those doors, against which she has
beaten her hand into blood?”
He was allowed to do as he wished. He laid Marianne in the foremost
sledge and sat down at her side. Beerencreutz sat behind and took the
reins.
“Take snow and rub her, Gösta!” he commanded.
The cold had paralyzed her limbs, nothing more. The wildly agitated heart
still beat. She had not even lost consciousness; she knew all about the
pensioners, and how they had found her, but she could not move. So she
lay stiff and stark in the sledge, while Gösta Berling rubbed her with
snow and alternately wept and kissed, and she felt an infinite longing to
be able only to lift a hand, that she might give a caress in return.
She remembered everything. She lay there stiff and motionless and thought
more clearly than ever before. Was she in love with Gösta Berling? Yes,
she was. Was it merely a whim of the moment? No, it had been for many
years. She compared herself with him and the other people in Värmland.
They were all just like children. They followed whatever impulse came
to them. They only lived the outer life, had never looked deep into
their souls. But she had become what one grows to be by living in the
world; she could never really lose herself in anything. If she loved,
yes, whatever she did, one half of her stood and looked on with a cold
scorn. She had longed for a passion which should carry her away in wild
heedlessness, and now it had come. When she kissed Gösta Berling on the
balcony, for the first time she had forgotten herself.
And now the passion came over her again, her heart throbbed so that she
heard it beat. Should she not soon be mistress of her limbs? She felt a
wild joy that she had been thrust out from her home. Now she could be
Gösta’s without hesitation. How stupid she had been, to have subdued her
love so many years. Ah, it is so sweet to yield to love. But shall she
never, never be free from these icy chains? She has been ice within and
fire on the surface; now it is the opposite, a soul of fire in a body of
ice.
Then Gösta feels how two arms gently are raised about his neck in a weak,
feeble pressure.
He could only just feel them, but Marianne thought that she gave
expression to the suppressed passion in her by a suffocating embrace.
But when Beerencreutz saw it he let the horse go as it would along the
familiar road. He raised his eyes and looked obstinately and unceasingly
at the Pleiades.
CHAPTER VII
THE OLD VEHICLES
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