The next evening Toppan was to deliver his lecture at the Grand Opera
House, but in the afternoon he called upon Victoria with a purpose. She
was out at the time but he determined to wait for her, and sat down in
the drawing-room until she should come. Presently he saw his book with
its marbled cover—familiar to him now as the face of a child to its
father,—lying conspicuously upon the center table. It was the copy he
had mailed to her from Bombay. He picked it up and ran over the leaves;
not one of them had been cut. He replaced the book upon the table and
left the house.
That night the Grand Opera House was packed to the doors and the street
in front was full of hoarse, over-worked policemen and wailing coachmen.
The awning was out over the sidewalk and the steps of the church across
the street were banked with row upon row of watching faces. It was
known that this was to be the last lecture of Toppan’s before he plunged
into the wilderness again, and that the world would not see him for five
years. The mayor of the city introduced him in a speech that was too
long, and then Toppan stood up and faced the artillery of opera-glasses,
and tried not to look into the right-hand proscenium box that held
Victoria Boyden and her party.
He kept the audience spell-bound for an hour, while he forgot his
useless notes, forgot his hearers and the circumstances of time and
place, forgot about Victoria Boyden and their mean little squabbles and
remembered only that he was Toppan, the great explorer, who had led his
men through the interior of Thibet, and had lived to tell it to these
people now before him. For an hour he made the people too, forget
themselves in him and his story, till they felt something of what he had
felt on those occasions when Hope was a phantom scattering chaff, when
Resolve wore thin under friction of disaster, when the wheels of Life
ran very low and men thanked God that they _could_ die. For an hour he
led them steadily into the heart of the unknown: the twilight of the
unseen. Then he had an inspiration.
He had worked himself up to a mood wherein he was himself at his very
best, when his chosen life-work made all else seem trivial and the
desire to do great things was big within him. In this mood he somehow
happened to remember Victoria Boyden, which he should not have done
because she was not to be thought of in connection with great deeds and
high resolves. But just at that moment Toppan felt his strength and
knew how great he really was, and how small and belittled she seemed in
comparison. She had practiced a small deception upon him, had done him
harm and would do him more. He suddenly resolved to break with her at
that very moment and place while he was strong and able to do it.
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