He determined to visit again his little bay. He swam carefully round
the terraces, whose pale shadows through the swift-spinning emerald
facets of the water seemed merest fancy. Siegmund touched them with his
foot; they were hard, cold, dangerous. He swam carefully. As he made
for the archway, the shadows of the headland chilled the water. There
under water, clamouring in a throng at the base of the submerged walls,
were sea-women with dark locks, and young sea-girls, with soft hair,
vividly green, striving to climb up out of the darkness into the
morning, their hair swirling in abandon. Siegmund was half afraid of
their frantic efforts.
But the tide carried him swiftly through the high gate into the porch.
There was exultance in this sweeping entry. The skin-white,
full-fleshed walls of the archway were dappled with green lights that
danced in and out among themselves. Siegmund was carried along in an
invisible chariot, beneath the jewel-stained walls. The tide swerved,
threw him as he swam against the inward-curving white rock; his elbow
met the rock, and he was sick with pain. He held his breath, trying to
get back the joy and magic. He could not believe that the lovely,
smooth side of the rock, fair as his own side with its ripple of
muscles, could have hurt him thus. He let the water carry him till he
might climb out on to the shingle. There he sat upon a warm boulder,
and twisted to look at his arm. The skin was grazed, not very badly,
merely a ragged scarlet patch no bigger than a carnation petal. The
bruise, however, was painful, especially when, a minute or two later,
he bent his arm.
“No,” said he pitiably to himself, “it is impossible it should have
hurt me. I suppose I was careless.”
Nevertheless, the aspect of the morning changed. He sat on the boulder
looking out on the sea. The azure sky and the sea laughed on, holding a
bright conversation one with another. The two headlands of the tiny bay
gossiped across the street of water. All the boulders and pebbles of
the sea-shore played together.
“Surely,” said Siegmund, “they take no notice of me; they do not care a
jot or a tittle for me. I am a fool to think myself one with them.”
He contrasted this with the kindness of the morning as he had stood on
the cliffs.
“I was mistaken,” he said. “It was an illusion.”
He looked wistfully out again. Like neighbours leaning from opposite
windows of an overhanging street, the headlands were occupied one with
another. White rocks strayed out to sea, followed closely by other
white rocks. Everything was busy, interested, occupied with its own
pursuit and with its own comrades. Siegmund alone was without pursuit
or comrade.
“They will all go on the same; they will be just as gay. Even Helena,
after a while, will laugh and take interest in others. What do I
matter?”
Siegmund thought of the futility of death:
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