She wandered back to her rock-pools; they were bright and docile; they
did not fling her about in a game of terror. She bent over watching the
anemone’s fleshy petals shrink from the touch of her shadow, and she
laughed to think they should be so needlessly fearful. The flowing tide
trickled noiselessly among the rocks, widening and deepening
insidiously her little pools. Helena retreated towards a large cave
round the bend. There the water gurgled under the bladder-wrack of the
large stones; the air was cool and clammy. She pursued her way into the
gloom, bending, though there was no need, shivering at the coarse feel
of the seaweed beneath her naked feet. The water came rustling up
beneath the fucus as she crept along on the big stones; it returned
with a quiet gurgle which made her shudder, though even that was not
disagreeable. It needed, for all that, more courage than was easy to
summon before she could step off her stone into the black pool that
confronted her. It was festooned thick with weeds that slid under her
feet like snakes. She scrambled hastily upwards towards the outlet.
Turning, the ragged arch was before heir, brighter than the brightest
window. It was easy to believe the light-fairies stood outside in a
throng, excited with fine fear, throwing handfuls of light into the
dragon’s hole.
“How surprised they will be to see me!” said Helena, scrambling
forward, laughing.
She stood still in the archway, astounded. The sea was blazing with
white fire, and glowing with azure as coals glow red with heat below
the flames. The sea was transfused with white burning, while over it
hung the blue sky in a glory, like the blue smoke of the fire of God.
Helena stood still and worshipped. It was a moment of astonishment,
when she stood breathless and blinded, involuntarily offering herself
for a thank-offering. She felt herself confronting God at home in His
white incandescence, His fire settling on her like the Holy Spirit. Her
lips were parted in a woman’s joy of adoration.
The moment passed, and her thoughts hurried forward in confusion.
“It is good,” said Helena; “it is very good.” She looked again, and saw
the waves like a line of children racing hand in hand, the sunlight
pursuing, catching hold of them from behind, as they ran wildly till
they fell, caught, with the sunshine dancing upon them like a white
dog.
“It is really wonderful here!” said she; but the moment had gone, she
could not see again the grand burning of God among the waves. After a
while she turned away.
As she stood dabbling her bathing-dress in a pool, Siegmund came over
the beach to her.
“You are not gone, then?” he said.
“Siegmund!” she exclaimed, looking up at him with radiant eyes, as if
it could not be possible that he had joined her in this rare place. His
face was glowing with the sun’s inflaming, but Helena did not notice
that his eyes were full of misery.
“I, actually,” he said, smiling.
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