"Of course I didn't have any right," he said gravely, "but I loved you
just the same. There's been some things in my life that I couldn't
help doin'. Lovin' you is one. I expect that you'll think I'm pretty
fresh, but I've been thinkin' a whole lot about you an' I've got to
tell you. You ain't like the women I've been used to. An' I reckon I
ain't just the kind of man you've been acquainted with all your life.
You've been used to seein' men who was all slicked up an' clever. I
expect them kind of men appeal to any woman. I ain't claimin' to be
none of them clever kind, but I've been around quite a little an' I
ain't never done anything that I'm ashamed of. I can't offer you a
heap, but if you----"
She had looked up quickly, her cheeks burning.
"Please don't," she pleaded, rising and placing a hand on his arm,
gripping it tightly. "I have known for a long time, but I--I wanted to
be sure." He could not suspect that she had only just now begun to
realize that she was in danger of yielding to him and that the
knowledge frightened her.
"You wanted to be sure?" he questioned, his face clouding. "What is it
that you wanted to be sure of?"
"Why," she returned, laughing to hide her embarrassment, "I wanted to
be sure that you loved me!"
"Well, you c'n be sure now," he said.
"I believe I can," she laughed. "And," she continued, finding it
difficult to pretend seriousness, "knowing what I do will make writing
so much easier."
His face clouded again. "I don't see what your writin' has got to do
with it," he said.
"You don't?" she demanded, her eyes widening with pretended surprise.
"Why, don't you see that I wanted to be sure of your love so that I
might be able to portray a real love scene in my story?"
He did not reply instantly, but folded his arms over his chest and
stood looking at her. In his expression was much reproach and not a
little disappointment. The hopes that had filled his dreams had been
ruined by her frivolous words; he saw her at this moment a woman who
had trifled with him, who had led him cleverly on to a declaration of
love that she might in the end sacrifice him to her art. But in this
moment, when he might have been excused for exhibiting anger; for
heaping upon her the bitter reproaches of an outraged confidence, he
was supremely calm. The color fled from his face, leaving it slightly
pale, and his eyes swam with a deep feeling that told of the struggle
that he was making.
"I didn't think you'd do it, ma'am," he said finally, a little
hoarsely. "But I reckon you know your own business best." He smiled
slightly. "I don't think there's any use of you an' me meetin'
again--I don't want to be goin' on, bein' a dummy man that you c'n
watch. But I'm glad to have amused you some an' I have enjoyed myself,
talkin' to you. But I reckon you've done what you wanted to do, an' so
I'll be gettin' along."
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