His father’s old resentments flared. Finding Quincy unresponsive,
silent, disagreeable, he turned to Sarah and asked what, after all,
_her_ child was likely to be good for. Rhoda came to feel in him a
deep, glowing animosity that showed in the curl of his lips when she
appeared in a ball gown, or in his refusal to look and join the chorus
of admiration, when she received a present or a compliment. She tossed
her head and decided that Quincy was an ugly little fellow with no
respect for beauty or superiority--a little fellow whom she must in
consequence ignore. Jonas discovered that when he wished to tell his
brother some loathsome, funny story, Quincy declined to be dazzled or
bewildered or amused. He learned to dislike heartily the cold aloofness
with which, during that year, Quincy received his visits from college
and rebuffed his chance efforts at attention. So Jonas also resolved to
ignore his brother. It did not occur to him that he had already killed
the boy’s love of fellowship with him; it did not occur to Rhoda that he
needed protection from the anguish which her ways had brought to his
rapt admiration. To the family, it was plain that a discordant element
was within it. And that was all.
Sarah did not understand. She was almost won over by the very prevalence
of the opinion that Quincy’s manner was a natural weed and the sole
cause of his own tribulation. But although she was not mind-proof to
this insidious crowd-psychology, her heart had power against it; and it
bled at the breach which, at last, she had been brought to see. However
she might feel called on to remonstrate with him, she was intuitively on
Quincy’s side.
Of course, in the very fact of her remonstrance, she defeated the good
her sympathy might have done. Quincy wished for no pity. He demanded
full understanding. Her way was not whole-hearted enough; was too
finite; was too eloquent of the influence of the “other side.” Deprived
of most, Quincy had become more exacting than ever. Feeling his mother’s
sense of his own fault, a tendency in her to see a shred of right
against him, he rejected her. And this he did cruelly, coldly,--without
explanation; so that the bewildered Sarah wrung her hands and ate out
her heart. In the boy’s breast smouldered not agony alone; but with it a
need of vindication. The family were so far from him that he knew well
the futility of reaching them. Even his resentment, he was aware, could
not attain them. And so it was that not only his instinct for affection
had been starved; even his sense of injury, since it was unblazoned, had
been injured also.
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