Frontier and pioneer life -- West (U.S.); United States -- Territorial expansion; West (U.S.) -- History -- Sources
During the first day, both she and the boys found so much to do that
they hardly took time to eat. They unloaded both wagons, set up the
stove, and carried out the table. Then Beret arranged their bedroom in
the larger wagon. With all the things taken out it was quite roomy in
there; it made a tidy bedroom when everything had been put in order.
The boys thought this work great fun, and she herself found some
relief in it for her troubled mind. But something vague and intangible
hovering in the air would not allow her to be wholly at ease; she had
to stop often and look about, or stand erect and listen.... Was that a
sound she heard? ... All the while, the thought that had struck her
yesterday when she had first got down from the wagon, stood vividly
before her mind: here there was nothing even to hide behind!... When
the room was finished, and a blanket had been hung up to serve as a
door, she seemed a little less conscious of this feeling. But back in
the recesses of her mind it still was there....
After they had milked the cow, eaten their evening porridge, and
talked awhile to the oxen, she took the boys and And-Ongen and
strolled away from camp. With a common impulse, they went toward the
hill; when they had reached the summit, Beret sat down and let her
gaze wander aimlessly around.... In a certain sense, she had to admit
to herself, it was lovely up here. The broad expanse stretching away
endlessly in every direction, seemed almost like the ocean—especially
now, when darkness was falling. It reminded her strongly of the sea,
and yet it was very different.
... This formless prairie had no heart that beat, no waves that sang,
no soul that could be touched ... or cared....
The infinitude surrounding her on every hand might not have been so
oppressive, might even have brought her a measure of peace, if it had
not been for the deep silence, which lay heavier here than in a
church. Indeed, what was there to break it? She had passed beyond the
outposts of civilization; the nearest dwelling places of men were far
away. Here no warbling of birds rose on the air, no buzzing of insects
sounded; even the wind had died away; the waving blades of grass that
trembled to the faintest breath now stood erect and quiet, as if
listening, in the great hush of the evening.... All along the way,
coming out, she had noticed this strange thing: the stillness had
grown deeper, the silence more depressing, the farther west they
journeyed; it must have been over two weeks now since she had heard a
bird sing! Had they travelled into some nameless, abandoned region?
Could no living thing exist out here, in the empty, desolate, endless
wastes of green and blue?... How _could_ existence go on, she thought,
desperately? If life is to thrive and endure, it must at least have
something to hide behind!...
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