Pennsylvania -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Of course, there was no coming home for the holidays; the fifteen
hundred dollars in the bank could not stand that; nor did she
have to come back in the long vacation, which would have been a
serious expense, for the president of the college, who was greatly
impressed by the girl’s ability and character, permitted her to
live in one of the college houses during the summer, and found for
her an opportunity to teach some little children. She earned enough
money to pay her board during those twelve weeks, and did not have
to draw on the cherished bank account.
The beginning of that college life was a strange experience to
Annie,--the quiet, refined atmosphere, the beauty of culture, the
conception of spaciousness and dignity, and the awaking of that
sense of fitness which is called conventionality. To Annie these
things were like the opening of the eyes of one born blind. By
degrees the small niceties of life revealed themselves to her,--the
delicacies of serving, the delicacies of living, the delicacies of
manner and voice and thought. She felt them all with a passionate
sort of joy.
It is curious to observe that by the pure and virgin mind these
things, which may be so worthless in their lifeless formality,
are seen in their real and fundamental nobility, and are accepted
with the instinct of religion. At first Annie was so normally
unconscious of her antecedents that it did not occur to her to
proclaim that all these things were new. And then, by and by,
having eaten of this tree of the knowledge of good and evil, there
came to her a certain deep spiritual experience; she recognized
that the root of conventionality, the beginning of the sense of
fitness, lay in character; therefore she knew no shame that her
father ate with his knife, or sat in his shirt-sleeves, or did many
unlovely things. She did not like them; but she knew no shame, only
love. But it was then that, very simply, she took occasion to say
that her father, who was a mechanic, had sent her here to college,
so that she might be fitted to support herself by teaching. She
said this because she recognized another point of view, and,
recognizing it, felt a certain lack of straightforwardness in
keeping silent; and also because she was proud of Johnny Graham.
Then she forgot it. It was too unimportant to think of.
She assimilated all these new ideas, and felt them and lived them,
as though she had been to the manner born. Her very face reflected
them. She was almost a beautiful young woman. Her deep eyes looked
out from under her straight, pure brows with a certain high
directness of glance and tranquil self-poise which gave a sense of
breeding which was inescapable. The fact that she had said that she
was poor was only in its way another proof of her superiority--so
some of the college-girls said, who went into schoolgirl ecstasies
about her.
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