Friday 28. Being Good-Friday, I spent more time than usual in reading and prayer, in which duty I found my soul very much blest and enlarged. Wednesday, April 2. The Rev. Mr. _Wesley_ gave us his company to tea, and afterwards preached on _Romans viii. 33, 34_. I found my mind very wandering. The next evening he preached again on _John v. 8, 9_. Jesus _saith unto him, rise take up thy bed and walk_. I found a blessing this evening though I sought it not as I ought. O what a good God is ours! Friday 4. This day I was very light and trifling; but in the afternoon the Lord was again pleased to stir me up, by the means of our maid, who this day found the Lord in communicating with a sick woman. O my God, what a slow progress do I make? Others find Jesus, but alas! for me, I find him not. I was also much blest in the evening while Mr. _Wesley_ was preaching on these words, _John xvii. 3_. _This is eternal life_, &c. Saturday 5. I set apart this day, in order to seek the Lord by prayer and meditation; and although I did not find him, so as to enable me to rejoice in him, as a pardoning God, yet I found him enlarging my heart in prayer, enabling me to plead his promises, and to cry to him for mercy, without which I clearly see I am undone for ever. “I give up every plea beside, Lord I am damned, but Christ has died.” Lord, thou hast said, I _came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance_. I am then one thou camest to save. O save me for thy mercy’s sake! “No need of thee the righteous have, Thou cam’st the lost to seek and save.” I found the word very sweet in the evening while Mr. _Wesley_ was inforcing the words, _Matthew ix. 5_. _Whether is it easier to say, Thy sins be forgiven thee? Or to say, Arise and walk?_ Sunday 6. This morning I found my desires very earnest for the blessing, while Mr. _Wesley_ was preaching on _Isaiah xxxv. 8_. _And a highway shall be there, and a way_, &c. And also afterwards while he was adminstring the sacrament. In the evening I was again encouraged to come to the Lord, while Mr. _Wesley_ was inviting us to _come and drink of the water of life freely_, but still I had not power to accept the invitation. We afterwards had a comfortable love-feast. Sunday 13. I arose pretty early and went to the preaching. I afterwards found great sweetness, in meditating on the love of God to sinners, and his willingness to receive them upon their sincere repentance, as also in private prayer.