I remember once, at a call of urgency, I volunteered to assist a
shepherd who was ministering to some neglected sheep, which had been
bitten by blow-flies. The grubs had hatched in the wounds, and had
burrowed inward. The sores had festered, and some had become cavities
several inches deep, laying bare bone and flesh, or going down to the
vital organs themselves, and in them were a mass of grubs that burrowed
and fed.
Some of the sheep lay dying, others might be saved if prompt attention
were paid to the wounds.
I still remember acutely the repulsion with which I touched and
cleansed, and dressed them. Others might have felt it less, but from
such things I am constitutionally averse.
But the feeling was mild to the repulsion with which she regarded the
foot on which her fingers rested. It was different in quality, because
she had a mind which saw clearly what should be done, and a body that
did not dream of rebellion; but it remained that she regarded the foot
she touched as something more grotesque and repulsive than her familiar
fishes, which swam in the clean flood, and that she felt as I might have
done, had duty called me to minister to one of the Killers--to touch the
worm-pink sliminess of the loathsome body while it waved its sucker in a
whistling gratitude for my attentions.
She knew her error instantly. “I should not have shown you. All is well.
Sleep. I will think of it thoroughly. Besides, I must communicate with
our Leader.”
Then her mind closed entirely; and after a time I slept.
CHAPTER XXI
THE BAT-WINGS
When I waked, the long night was far spent, and the moonlight had left
the window. My companion’s hand was still laid closely upon the injured
foot, and as I stirred, her thought met me.
“I have much to tell. Lie still, and listen.
“First, of ourselves. It is true that your body is, to me, a thing both
absurd and repulsive. But should this divide us? My own body does not
wear out, and, if injured, in most cases can be repaired, though not
easily. I know that I exist independently of it, and that I am separate
from it, even though I am in it, perhaps, for ever.
“Your body is of little use, and you control it imperfectly. It needs
constant repair, and it is of a kind that wears out very rapidly. What
you do afterward, or whether you continue at all, is doubtful even to
yourself, though in that, I suppose, you are misled by your body’s
impermanence. Whether you could be provided with such a body as mine, or
whether you could use it, I do not know. My Leaders might, but in such
matters we have little knowledge. The Dwellers know much of these
things, as you will understand from what I am about to tell you. If you
have the courage to ask them, they can tell you much, if they will; but
they may destroy you at once, if they think it needful.
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