The man's anger was not one of those flash like bursts of wrath, that,
passing as quickly as they come, leave the sky as clear as though no
storm had crossed it. Nor was it the slow kindling, determined, anger,
that, directed against a definite object, burns with steady purpose.
It was rather that sullen, hopeless, helpless rage, that, finding
nothing to vent itself upon, endures even while recognizing that its
endurance is in vain. It was the anger of a captive, wild thing
against the steel bars of its cage, which, after months of effort, it
has found too strong. It was the anger of an explorer against the
impassable crags and cliffs of a mountain range that bars his path. It
was the anger of a blind man against the darkness that will not lift.
The man's work demanded freedom and the man was not free. In his
dreams, at the beginning of his manhood, he had thought himself free
to work out his dreams. He had said to himself: "Alone, in my own
strength, I will work. Depending upon no man, I will be independent.
Limited only by myself, I will be free." He said this because he did
not, then, know the strength of the bars. He had not, at that time,
seen the mountain range. He had not faced the darkness that would not
lift. Difficulties, hardships, obstacles, dangers, he had expected to
face, and, in his strength, to overcome. But the greatest difficulty,
the severest hardship, the most trying obstacle, the gravest danger,
he had not foreseen.
Little by little, as the days and months had passed and the man had
made progress in his work, this thing had made itself felt. Little by
little, this thing had forced itself upon him until, at last, he was
made to realize the fact that he was not independent of but dependent
upon all men. He found that he was limited not alone by himself but by
others. He understood, now, that he was not free to work out his
dreams. He saw, now, that the thing most difficult to overcome--the
thing that forbade his progress and refused him freedom--was
Tradition. On every side he met this: "It has never been done; it,
therefore, can never be done. The fathers of our fathers believed
this, therefore we must believe it. This has always been, therefore
this must always be. Others do this, think this, believe this,
therefore you must so do and think and believe." The man found, that,
beyond a point which others could see, others denied him the right to
go. The established customs and habits of others fixed the limit of
the progress he could make with the approval of the world.
At first he had laughed--secure in his own strength, he had laughed
contemptuously. But that was because he did not then realize the power
of this thing. Later he did not laugh. He became angry with a sullen,
hopeless, helpless, rage that accomplished nothing--that could
accomplish nothing--but only weakened the man himself. As one shut in
a cell exhausts himself beating against the walls, so he wearied
himself.
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