England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Villages -- England -- Fiction
He opened it. And as he did so, out of some background of old
associations, there rushed upon him such an intolerable loathing for his
own action that for a few moments his eyes refused to see its contents.
The false pleading with which he had covered it was no longer to be
called up, could never any more be called up. It was with a sense of
desperate degradation that he forced himself to master the writing,
pathetic in its feebleness, confused and indistinct. "I think it is all
coming to an end at last," it said, with a forlornness which might have
touched him at another time, "and that my successor will soon be free of
my shoes, such as they are. I don't talk about repenting, but somehow
my girl's face comes before me night and day,--I might have been more
patient with her, though I did no more than I told her to look for.
Your father seems a just man; people call me a hard old fellow, but I
have still a feeble belief in human nature, and I believe in him. If
you choose you may place a decision in his hands, and if he tells me the
thing should be done, I will make an alteration in my will, half the
money shall go as it is now settled, and half to Ellen Harford,
Margaret's child. But should he think the change unnecessary, I do not
wish to be pestered by replies or arguments. Silence will answer me
fully. I shall understand that he thinks my proposal unadvisable, and I
shall never break it by an allusion."
And this was the letter which Marmaduke must deliver.
For a quarter of an hour he stood motionless with it in his hand. Over
his head was the sweet changeable April sky, and on either side of the
road a little green copse in which the birds were chirping and
twittering. He looked up at last, with a fierce gesture of impatience
at their glad piping, at the tender sunshine; a sudden storm, a wild
rending of all these pretty gentle things, would have been more
congenial to him just then than the burden of their joy. Two men jogged
by him in a cart, and looked at him curiously as he stood by the
roadside. It raised a quick fear that they might discover his secret,
and he began to walk slowly on again, reading and rereading the letter
in obedience to some mechanical impulse, for the first sight had burned
the words into his brain. It was remarkable that he had no longer any
fear of Anthony as a rival, probably from his own frame of mind being
such that it was impossible for him to realise a sane man putting such a
choice into the hands of his heir, and conceiving the idea of his
exercising it in any way but one. It was only a robbery of himself
which was revealed to him; an iniquitous deprival of half of his
inheritance. For he needed no assurance of what Mr Miles's decision
would be. He had a half-uncomfortable, half-slighting contempt for the
Vicar's notions, which he classed with other antiquated forms of thought
belonging to the old world. Anthony's words came back to him with a
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