Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
"Lauren Isaacson."...I swallowed hard and stood up. "Oh...I was
expecting a boy." I smiled as pleasantly as I was able, and reminded
myself that this was the person who would extract my blood, the needle
wielder. "Most people just call me 'Laurie'," I replied. I was seated
and told to make a fist as the nurse applied a tourniquet above my
elbow. She prattled on, simultaneously producing a needle attached to
the largest vial I had ever seen; it must have been five inches long
and the diameter of a 25 cent piece. "Where are you from,
Lauren?...You'll feel a stick..." "Moline, Illinois," eyeing the vial
as it plunged into my vein. "Have you had your blood drawn before?"
"Yeh...a few days ago..." The vial filled and an assistant handed her
another of the same size. "Uh...how much are you gonna take, anyway?"
I asked, feeling strangely self-protective... "Just a little
more...you have many tests scheduled..." She popped out the second
vial and handed it to her assistant, replacing it with yet another,
though shorter and about the diameter of a dime. It filled more
slowly, almost unwillingly, perhaps. Eventually the nurse decided that
she had drawn enough and whisked the needle from my vein, binding my
arm securely with the gauze. "You can go to the green door now,
Lauren." I smiled and departed, happy that I had one test behind me.
The green door housed another form of blood test in which one "merely"
had his finger pricked. I said "merely" because, in my opinion, the
prick hurt much more than did the former blood test, because one's
finger tips contain so many sensitive nerve endings. After having my
finger stabbed, its bright red blood squeezed onto multiple slides and
in miniscule vials, I was free to take my leave. As I returned to my
parents in the lobby, I found the nearest trash receptacle and disposed
of my reeking, alcohol-doused bandages; I disliked the odor for its
strangely lingering overtones. It was amazing to me that the nurses
could draw blood hour after hour; I would detest such a job; yet it was
comforting that there were those who could aid humanity in such ways.
Walking to my next appointment, I wondered casually whether they ever
felt like mosquitoes!
Holding the various appointment cards I noted that, of the remaining
tests, all were X-rays except a suspicious card which read "Bone
Marrow." Marrow, I knew was located inside the bone, and dreadful
thoughts danced nervously about my brain. When we finally reached the
desk behind which lurked the mysterious and disconcerting test, we
found ourselves amid stately decor, closely resembling the impeccably
correct taste of an Old English library. Hues of rich burgundies and
browns, accented by marble floors and columns, marched down shadowed,
slightly ominous hallways and beneath closed hardwood doors. It seemed
appropriate to whisper, as even footsteps echoed through the corridors.
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