Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
When our afternoon of leisure had come to a close, we made our way to
the Mayo building and took the elevator to the designated floor. By
now we were quite used to waiting, and after registering my name at the
front desk, seated ourselves in the expansive lobby.
The test results would have been scrutinized and second opinions heard.
We now awaited the doctor, and, in certain respects, the future; each
of us sat in silence, nurturing one's own worries, until my name was
announced. The three of us rose in haphazard unison, glad to have a
reason for shifting our position, and were guided down a hallway to a
private room. Again we awaited the doctors arrival, yet felt more
inclined to engage in conversation now that we were removed from the
stifling quiet of the lobby.
Finally I heard footsteps outside the door. The feet paused, while a
faintly audible rustling of papers issued beneath the closed door.
Silence again. Then suddenly, as if uncertainty had been washed away,
the door knob turned and a doctor burst into the room, extending his
hand to my father and offering a friendly "hello!" to us. We all
stood; I smiled. I had no fear of doctors; the fear stemmed from that
which they knew, and I the patient, as yet, did not.
We seated ourselves once again, and the doctor began questioning me
about the way in which I felt, physically. To nearly all of the
disconcerting questions, I replied in a positive fashion, which to my
parents was a "good sign" and indicated that my health problem
"couldn't be that serious if everything seemed so promising." Then the
doctor asked the color of my bowel movements. I started to laugh.
"Brown." "But what color brown?" he persisted. I laughed some more;
turning my face to the floor, I noticed that the tiles ranged in color
from yellow to the deepest brown, and wondered if the staff had
requested that particular tile for the express purpose of color
clarification. I smiled, and selected a nice, warm brown. "That looks
about right." Then he inquired whether my stools had ever been black.
My eyes flew open. "BLACK?!!" I lost control...to me this was a
horrendous joke. He had his answer, and quickly scribbled "no" on his
note paper.
I was having a grand time, under the circumstances. After the question
and answer session ceased, I was instructed to lay on the table; he
wished to take a look at my stomach region. Applying pressure to
various areas, and gently tapping others, he asked if I felt any pain.
I did not, so he invited other doctors into the room, creating a troupe
of seven in all, who took turns prodding my stomach, and in my opinion,
tickling me to death. I flinched as each new hand poked my bare
flesh, and embarrassed, tried desperately to control my convulsive
muscles and fits of laughter.
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