"You remember Hammerstone Market?" he went on, watching me, and perhaps
noting the expression of my face as I heard names I remembered. "All
changed down there, in one way, and yet not changed in another. Some
dead, and some alive. You remember Barbara?"
"Yes; I loved--loved Barbara," I whispered brokenly.
"You shall see her again; talk with her again; come into her life
again." There was a fierce eagerness about him that held me and
frightened me. "That's what I'm going to do for you; that's what I meant
when I said that I would bring you back to love and life and laughter.
Look round this room--and then see it all swept away," he went on with
growing excitement. "I've found one friend who will help us both; it may
happen that we are not poor and forlorn any more. We have both suffered;
it is right that we should have some little joy in our lives."
"What are you going to do with me?" I asked him, as I had asked before;
but he laughed, and would not answer me.
I spent the rest of the day in that place, cowering over the fire, and
striving hard to look back into the past. I found it difficult at first;
it was like a closed book to me, in which only here and there, when I
was able at last to open it, could I decipher a few words--a few broken
sentences that came like the sigh of a dead wind blowing over the dead
years back to me. I got up mechanically when I was called to eat what
simple food he put before me, going back afterwards to crouch over the
fire, and to start that burrowing process again into the lost years.
It was late in the evening when I saw him reading again that letter he
had taken from his pocket, and muttering to himself over it. At last he
seemed suddenly to make up his mind about it; he crammed it back into
his pocket, and put on his hat, and announced that he was going out.
"You can stay here," he told me curtly; "no one will interfere with
you."
I sat still for a little time after he had gone; and then an intolerable
restlessness seized upon me. I was like a lost spirit; I did not know
what to do with myself. I found myself pacing out again on the floor the
steps that for twenty years I had paced out in my cell; and finding the
room too large, so that the steps would not fit in. And at last got my
hat, and went out into the streets; and looked about me, with a new and
definite idea for the first time growing in my mind.
Hammerstone Market! At Hammerstone Market I had been happy once; and
there, waiting for me, and preserved in some strange fashion through all
the years, was the life I had laid down and left behind me. Why had I
not thought of this before? It was the simplest thing in the world; I
had but to go to that place where I had been happy to pick up again the
thread of my life, and to put together successfully the puzzle I did not
now understand. So I set out for the place, with a new and happy
confidence growing in my mind.
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