Perhaps the strangest thing of all was to see him go to that inn where I
had once stayed--going into it with the light step that I must have had
twenty years before. It was as though the ghost of myself had come back,
in a better shape than I, to take up the life I had dropped.
I watched him all that day; which is to say that I hung about the little
town, and waited for him, wondering what he would do. I was not
surprised when, as it was growing dark, he came out into the High
Street, and set off at a swinging pace in the direction of the house I
had known as belonging to old Patton. With the trot that had been mine
for so long in the exercise ground of the prison, I went after him.
It was obvious that he was not so lucky as I had been, in that he must
not enter the house. I crept into the grounds, and presently saw him
standing on that very terrace on which I had stood with my
Barbara--looking in at the windows and listening; I was below the
terrace, crouched among some bushes, watching him, and watching the
lighted windows. Presently a man walked to one of them, and opened it a
little way, and returned into the room; and still I lay there, watching
and thinking and wondering.
Then across the silence of the night there broke the sound of music, and
the voice of a girl singing. I dropped my head upon my arms as I lay
there; it seemed as though I could not bear it. For this was a song I
had heard twenty years before in that very room, and it seemed to me
that the voice was the same, coming hauntingly and wonderfully out of
the past. The boy stood listening too; every word and every note floated
to us clearly. It seemed as though out of the deep night of the years
Barbara's voice came to me, singing to me as she had sung before.
The song ceased, and the last notes died away. The girl came to the open
window, and looked out into the night; I saw the boy crouching there,
watching her. Then from somewhere in the room a man's voice sounded
quite clearly and distinctly.
"Barbara, you have your mother's voice."
She turned her head, and looked back into the room. "Thank you, father,"
she said; "I like to hear you say that."
I lay still, with a full understanding coming to me for the first time.
This was not my Barbara; this was her child. I had come back, to find
the mother gone, and the child in her place--in her very likeness.
And I had come back, as it seemed, to touch again a love story as
hopeless and as broken as my own had been. While the girl stood at
the window, and the boy crouched in the shadows watching her, I lay
there--thinking--thinking!
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