Meanwhile the Lady Etwynde is seriously disturbed and perplexed. She
is too genuinely fond of Lauraine not to perceive that she has some
inward trouble weighing on her mind, and yet she does not ask its
nature, or even appear to notice it. She knows the girl is
pure-minded, loyal, self-controlled; but so have been other women,
who, beneath a sudden tempting--a fierce, wild, incomprehensible
passion--have fallen from their high estate. And there is that in
and about Lauraine that betrays that she could love very deeply, very
passionately, with that absorption of herself into what she loves
that is so dangerous a trait in any woman's character. To the weak,
the placid, the prosaic, the cold, such a nature as this is quite
incomprehensible. To the untempted it is so easy to be strong; to
the cold, so easy to be virtuous. The conquest of self seems so
possible when you have not to count the cost. To yourself? ah, no,
not to _yourself_, but to one other who is all the world to you, and
whose pain and sorrow intensify your own till the agony grows too
much for human strength to bear.
Lady Etwynde had no personal experience to guide her through this
maze of conclusions; but she had an immense amount of sympathy, and
an infinite tenderness of nature. It pleased her to veil and deny
this to the world at large, but it made her all the more beloved by
the chosen few whom she neither could nor would deceive.
For Lauraine she had conceived a strong liking, not the mere pretty,
gushing fancy that stands in lieu of friendship with so many women of
the world; but an earnest and appreciative affection that would serve
and stand by her all her life. She had a shrewd suspicion that all
was not right with her; some care, some secret trouble, was preying
on her mind, she felt assured.
"Perhaps, in time, she will tell me," she thinks to herself. "I hope
she may. I might help her. Brooding over these things with one's
self always makes them worse. What a woman can't talk of is bad for
her. It eats into her heart and life, and absorbs all that is best
in both. There is a disdain, a weariness about Lauraine unnatural in
one so young. She loves her child, that one can see; but apart and
aside from him she seems to have no life, no interest. Apathy,
indifference, despair; those are not things that should be about her
yet; but I know they are. And why?"
The dinner-bell sounds, and puts an end to her reflections, and she
goes down the great oak staircase in her floating, artistic
draperies, and, despite her beauty and her picturesqueness, actually
has the bad taste to murmur
"What a comfort there are no men here!"
CHAPTER XIV
The storm that threatened at sunset fulfils its prediction as night
draws on. Lauraine, lying awake in her bed, hears the howling of the
wind, the fierce rush and sweep of the rain, the far-off roar of
angry waves that dash against the dreary iron-bound cliffs.
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