Unlucky: A Fragment of a Girl's LifeAustin, Caroline
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Unlucky: A Fragment of a Girl's Life
Austin, Caroline
Domestic fiction; England -- Juvenile fiction; Stepdaughters -- Juvenile fiction
"Did he really look as if he were going to die?" asked Harold rather
irrelevantly.
Helen nodded. To speak the words again hurt her.
"I wonder what dying is like?" went on Harold.
Suddenly, and almost as he spoke, the sun dropped behind a bank of red
clouds. A little breeze sprang up and murmured in the trees overhead.
Helen shuddered and drew closer to her companion.
"It must be very awful," he went on. "And to think that the world will
go on just the same when we are gone. The sun will shine and the birds
will sing, and we shall be lying in the dreadful cold earth. It is
horrible."
"I used to think just like that once, Harold," whispered Helen
half-shyly. "I was dreadfully afraid of all sorts of things. I used to
think after I had been naughty that perhaps I should go to sleep and
wake up in hell. One day I told Cousin Mary--you don't know Cousin Mary,
do you? It is so easy to talk to her; one can tell her _anything_. She
thinks that dying will be only like going to sleep in the dark. We shall
be a little frightened, perhaps, but we shall know all the time that
nothing bad can really happen to us. And if any pain comes to us
afterwards it will be quite different from the pain that we suffer
now--pain that will never make us impatient or angry, because we shall
be able then to understand that it is bringing us nearer to God and
heaven. Cousin Mary says that is the end of all pain, only we are not
able to understand it quite now."
"Cousin Mary must say very odd things," observed Harold, who had been
trying to fathom Helen's meaning, and who felt hopelessly puzzled.
"Mother says that she is odd, and father says that some of her notions
are not--I forget the word; but they never ask her to stay with us. Is
she really very nice?"
"Very," answered Helen emphatically.
There was a pause. Both children were busy with their own thoughts. They
made a striking picture as they sat close together beneath the gnarled
apple-tree, the dying sunset lights lingering on their fair young
heads--a picture that was not without its pathos, because life must pass
that way, life--and death.
"I expect that it is getting late, and I ought to be going home," said
Harold after a few minutes, wearying of silence, and beginning to feel
that even Agatha's teasing would have a refreshingly every-day sound
after such serious thoughts.
Helen rose rather reluctantly.
"Very well," she said. "Let us go in and say good-night to father, and
afterwards I will walk with you as far as the gate."
"And I say, Helen, you won't forget to cut out those wheels for me
to-morrow morning, will you? They must match exactly, remember. And if
you could pull out and stretch that wire----"
"I sha'n't forget, Harold. You needn't fear. But, by the way, you never
told me about Jim Hunt."
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