She came at last to a little enclosure set about with evergreens and
almost knee-deep in withered grass. Her eyes, grown accustomed to the
wan light, could make out two little hillocks, as it were, formed within
by heaped-up earth, and clasped by the tangled herbage. Underneath their
sometime verdant rises slept the first twain who in Virginia bore the
name of Caryston. Side by side, so had they lain, in death together
as in life they had been. Virginia knew well this their self-chosen
resting-place. Here on summer afternoons would she come to knit. Here she
always brought the first spring flowers, and here she had always placed
boughs of white and purple lilacs every day while they lasted. She had
dreamed and wondered and enjoyed here, and here she came to suffer, as
from some subtle instinct a man turns to his childhood’s home to die.
Just outside the wicket gate the daffodils were all in plenteous blossom,
as though day, for once relenting, had dropped an armful of gold into
the lap of night. On a locust-tree near by a mocking-bird trilled and
warbled. She cast herself face down upon one of the graves, clasping
it about with her bare arms, as one clasps a proven friend in time of
trouble. She had spoken no word as yet. She suffered as keenly, as
dumbly, as any creature, wild or tame, to whom there is no soul. But all
at once a cry broke from her, then over and over again, “O my God! O my
God! O my God!”
The sobbing piteousness of this desolate prayer as it tore its way from
the depths of her wild heart--who shall write of it? Not I--not I--even
if I could. She was a savage; she suffered like a savage. Will any say
there was no justice in it? It is something, is it not, to be capable of
passion such as that? She suffered beyond most people, men and women, it
is true; but was she not in that much blessed above them?
She lay there until the dawn looked whitely above the eastern hills upon
the waking earth. In her quaint old dress one might have thought her the
tortured ghost of the woman who had so long slept in peace below the
grass-hidden mound. She staggered, when at last she rose to her feet,
and fell for a moment upon her knees. There was a sense of vagueness
that possessed her. She did not seem to care now, somehow. She wondered
if they would be married at the little church in the neighborhood, and
if they would let her come. She thought _he_ would. She thought that she
would not mind much seeing it. Of course they would live here. She would
see them together every day. Well, what of that? She was surprised in a
dull way that it did not affect her more. Then she remembered that she
had not made any bread for him, such as he liked, the night before.
Well, it was a pity; but it was too late; it wouldn’t have time to rise
now. She must think of something else. Morning came on apace, clad all
in translucent beryl-colored robes, and brow-bound with gold and with
scarlet.
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