Religious communities -- Fiction; West (U.S.) -- Fiction
It was late that night when Everett returned to the inn after a walk far
a-field. At supper-time he had asked about Hans Peter, but he had
learned nothing of the whereabouts of the simple one. He had a faint
idea that he ought to search for the fool, but his thoughts were
absorbed by Walda. He spoke to Diedrich Werther, who dozed in an
arm-chair, and the landlord slowly lighted a tall tallow dip and passed
it to Everett. He lingered to ask whether any message had come from
Wilhelm Kellar. The landlord replied that the school-master had stopped
to ask for the stranger in Zanah, but it was nothing urgent, for Gerson
Brandt had told how fast Wilhelm Kellar was gaining strength.
Everett stumbled along the dark, narrow passage that led to his room. A
draught blew out his candle, which he did not relight. Feeling his way
to his bed, he threw himself down upon it and tried to think what course
was wisest for him to pursue in winning Walda. He was not blind to the
many obstacles between them, but he was a man who was accustomed to
obtain what he coveted, and he admitted no thought of defeat. He wanted
Walda with all the intensity of a strong nature. He knew now that he
loved her, and he felt that she was his by right of that claim. A sense
of his own unworthiness haunted him when he thought of her innocence and
her unworldliness, but there had been born in him a new spirit that
consumed all his old desires. He knew that even if he could make the
prophetess of Zanah love him, it would be impossible for him to persuade
her to leave the colony as long as her father lived. He felt a hot wave
of shame every time he realized that if love came to Walda it would
bring her only dishonor before her people. Whenever this view of the end
of his wooing presented itself, he resolutely refused to face it. He
listened to the cry of his heart. He loved the woman of Zanah; he
coveted her for his wife.
Women are happy to enshrine love in their hearts even when it must burn
in a vestal flame, but men are not content unless they can carry it as a
torch from which to light the fires in the hearts of those whom they
would make their own. Women can kneel before the embers of a great
passion and be grateful, even though it must burn out before it can
reach their own hearth-stones; men would snatch the holy fire at any
cost. Everett had slowly reached the point where he had deliberately
determined to make Walda love him. He had eased his conscience by the
plea that it was a crime for a woman of such rare beauty to be buried in
the colony. He was sure he could make her happy in the world that held
so much for him. He could reason himself into the belief that he was
saving her from a wasted life. Yet, with all his reasoning, he could not
see how he was to obtain her consent to marry him and to go away with
him. Still, he hugged to his heart the belief that fate would befriend
him, and he resolved not to look beyond the one great aim of making
Walda love him.
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