“Eccentric--eccentric,” he muttered, for lack of anything else to say.
What an impossible creature to talk seriously with! She was always
flying off at a tangent. Controlling his exasperation he said in a low,
intense voice: “Eccentric or not, I am not going to marry. _Do_ you
understand? I--am--not--going--to--marry.”
“Why do you get angry?” she pleaded sweetly. “It’s unreasonable. I
can’t _make_ you marry me--can I? I don’t want to marry you if you
don’t want to marry me--do I?”
He strode away, back again to where she sat in graceful ease on the end
of her canoe. “I’m not so thundering sure of that!” he cried. “By Jove,
you sometimes make me feel as if I had a halter round my neck. Where
did you get this infernal insistence?”
“From my father,” said she, quiet and calm. “I can’t help it. When my
heart gets set on a thing I hold on like grim death.”
He looked round, like a man dreaming. “Am I awake? Am I really awake?”
he demanded of lake and trees and stones. Then he addressed her, “What
are you up to? I know you don’t love me. I know you don’t want to marry
me. Then _why_ do you do it?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “I just can’t help it. Sometimes when I’m
alone and think over things I’ve said to you I can’t believe it was
really I--or that such words really were uttered.... There can be only
one explanation.”
“And what is that? For Heaven’s sake, let’s have it.”
“That I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that you love me.”
“Really!” exclaimed he, with a fantastic attempt at scornful irony; and
away he strode, to halt at his former seat, the big bowlder under the
tree. “Really!” he repeated.
“You must see it yourself,” urged she, serious and earnest. “Honestly,
Chang, could a girl talk to you as I have--a girl as proud and as
modest as I am--and with no experience--could she do it, unless she
were absolutely sure she was talking to a man who loved her?”
There was something akin to terror in his eyes--the terror of a man who
feels himself sinking in ocean or quicksand and looks about in vain for
aid. Down he sat, to stare out over the shining, sparkling lake.
“You know I’m right,” said she with quiet conviction.
Up he started again in agitation. “I must be getting weak-minded!” he
cried. “Or are you hypnotizing me?”
“If anybody’s done any hypnotizing I guess it must be you that have
hypnotized me.”
“Maybe so,” said he, with a confused gesture. “Maybe so. Lord knows. I
don’t.”
“And now,” pursued she, “that it’s settled that we love each other----”
“What!” he cried, with some of his former energy. But it subsided
before her calm, surprised gaze. He stared stupidly at her feet,
extended and crossed. “Is it settled?” he muttered. “Is it?” And then
he straightened himself--a kind of rearing, insurgent gesture--the
gesture of the last fierce stand in the last ditch.
“Yes, Chang, it’s settled,” said she soothingly. “You are such a big,
foolish dear! But--as I was about to say--” She hesitated.
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