Historical fiction; United States -- History -- Colonial period, ca. 1600-1775 -- Fiction
The fire beyond the lean-to was dying down. This had happened
before--how many times? Marching over to refresh it, Reuben found he
could not remember. No moon yet, therefore dawn must be remote in the
future. He stood with his spear on the unimpeded ground between the two
fires, considering, brooding.
The passion of hatred held something of love or at least a sultry need,
a hunger not of the belly. He studied the pairs of eyes--four--wondering
which pair might be hers. He fell to muttering, aiming at the gray bitch
wolf every foulness of indecent words he could recall. Words only,
unrelieving, lacking the thrust and achievement of a spear. New words
startled him: "Such meat should help him...."
He had not the strength to do any harm with a thrown spear; he would
only lose the weapon. Sometimes the very power of a stronger adversary
can be made to work for you. If you know how. If you dare.
Reuben knew he was not mad. Within the passion was a coldness to match
her own; shrewdness; wicked planning with all the treachery of a wolf
and the bravery. No time now to think of courage or fear. Endless time
to know the unbearable need for an act of love.
Reuben sank to his heels on this open ground, the lean-to at his back,
fires not great to the left and the right of him, between him and the
wolves only an expanse of flame-lit snow. He dropped the green ash spear
in that white so that the sharp end was covered. His hand curling midway
on the shaft owned a separate life, refusing to suffer from the harsh
coldness. Gradually he allowed his head to droop, lift feebly and droop
again, while his upturned eyes, perhaps not plain to the enemy,
maintained alertness. Seeing all. Clever as Ben's.
The beasts were cruelly wise, Jesse Plum used to say. Out of thickets
and moon-shadows they watched men's ways, as dogs did. Unlike dogs they
watched only for signs of weakness, and this from no motives but hunger
and savagery--except, said Jesse, those wolves which were not wolves.
He must be not reckless but wise and cold as they. He must be ready also
to recognize the need for retreat. Supposing they all four came
together, then he must jump to life quickly, scare them with noise and
bustling and renewal of the fires. But supposing, when this interminable
ordeal of crouching, waiting and feigning weakness came to an end,
supposing it ever did--supposing his feet had not grown numb and frozen
to betray him--supposing the old gray bitch should advance alone, while
Ben lay sleeping and the Great Bear slanted toward the North Star----
She was coming.
He would not believe it for a while. Slowly he explained to himself
that one of them must have crept out into the open a long time ago, as
some trick of the firelight deceived him into calling it another shadow.
Then he knew this was not so. She was coming to him. With all his heart
he accepted it.
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