There were no women in that house. Its inhabitants were a number
of young men like myself, all superb in physique and many of them
extremely handsome, but they were all gloomy and depressed. I was
right in guessing them to be other candidates for fatherhood. They
were guarded and served by very old men in long robes like tea-gowns.
Horrible old creatures they were, like wicked midwives who vary their
habit of bringing human beings into the world by preparing their dead
bodies to leave it. But the young men were hardly any better: they were
dull, stupid, and listless, and their conversation was obscene.
We had to spend our time in physical exercise, in taking baths and
anointing our bodies with unguents and perfumes. We were decked out
in beautiful clothes. Embroidered coats and white linen kilts. In the
evenings there were lectures on physiology, and we were made to chant
a poetical passage from the works of William Christmas, a description
of the glory of the bridegroom, of which I remember nothing except an
offensive comparison with a stallion.
The humiliation was terrible, and when I remembered the superintendent
speaking of “the mothers of my children” I was seized with a nausea
which I could not shake off, until, two days after my arrival, an
epidemic of suicide among the candidates horrified me into a wholesome
reaction against my surroundings. I found it hard to account for
the epidemic until I noticed the coincidence of the disappearance
of the most comely of the young men with the periodic visits of the
high officials. This pointed, though at first I refused to believe
it, to the vilest abuse of the system set up by the women in their
pathetic attempt to solve the problem of population scientifically.
Far, far better were it had they been content with their refusal to
bear children and to impose chastity upon all without exception, and
to let the race perish. Must the stronger sex always seek to degrade
the weaker? My experience in that house filled me with an ungovernable
hatred of women. The sight of them with the absurdities of their
bodies accentuated by the trousered costumes they had elected to adopt
filled me with scorn and bitter merriment. The smell of them, to which
in my hatred I became morbidly sensitive, made me sick. The sound of
their voices set my teeth on edge.
Such was my condition when, after three weeks’ training, I was called
before the examination committee.
XIV: THE EXAMINATION
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