Woman—through a man's eyeglassSalaman, Malcolm C. (Malcolm Charles)
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Woman—through a man's eyeglass
Salaman, Malcolm C. (Malcolm Charles)
Single women; Wives -- Anecdotes; Women -- Anecdotes; Women -- Social and moral questions
We are always apt—we worldly folk—to think that no woman becomes a nun,
unless she has had some bitter disappointment in love, or seeks to do
penance for wordly error, or to escape from sorrow or suffering. Sister
Annunciata sought the religious life for none of these reasons. She
had enjoyed a happy, careless girlhood, the world had offered her no
trials; the pleasures of youth were open to her, as were the joys of
happy womanhood. But her sensibilities were not yet awakened, she had
never known what love meant, though she had been sought in marriage. So
the ordinary social gaieties took but slight hold upon her, and life
meant nothing to her but home affections and a passion for the arts.
But one day she saw a strong man suddenly smitten with paralysis, and
she realised all at once the littleness of life, and how it should
be used, such as it is, as a preparation for a greater. Then all her
religious tendencies developed, and she bethought her how to make her
life most useful while she was striving for Divine grace. To devote
herself entirely to prayer, as many sisterhoods do, seemed to her
selfish, and so, while she elected to renounce the world for the sake
of her own soul, she felt that she could use such gifts and knowledge
as she possessed for the instruction of the youth of her own sex, who
sought the educational influence of the convent. Therefore, with the
enthusiasm of a lofty purpose she entered upon her novitiate, and then,
after two years, as no one questioned her vocation for the religious
life, she took the final irrevocable vows that severed her from home
and from the world. Her life as a novice had been made smooth for her,
and all had endeavoured to show her the alluring side of the religious
life, and strengthen her in the sense of duty that impelled her to
adopt it. But no one warned her of the arduous life of self-suppression
that was before her: no one told her that she was actually more fitted
for the world than the cloister; that the sensibilities still dormant
in her might some day awaken, when too late to be warmed with the human
sympathy that they needed, and then be frozen in her heart, after much
pain. So when I knew Sister Annunciata she had lived “unspotted from
the world” some ten years or so, and had brought herself seemingly into
a spirit of sublime submissiveness.
But had she not suffered terrible affliction of the soul during those
years? For her spirit was proud and sensitive, and in small and narrow
communities there are small and narrow jealousies, and authority is
sometimes tyrannical. But Sister Annunciata is a woman of iron will
and indomitable self-command, while she makes the light of faith the
only beacon of her life. Therefore she has schooled herself to accept
every cross with equanimity, while the natural cheerfulness of her
disposition enables her to seem content and happy, as well as to
inspire happiness in others.
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