She had often pictured to her fancy what the house might have been
made, if there had but been money to make it anything with, money to
do anything with; if only they had not always been so helpless, so
burdened with the especially painful load of genteel poverty. She had
exercised her womanly ingenuity, put forth her womanly tastes, so far
as she could, and the house was better than might have been expected
under all the circumstances; but ingenuity and taste, which double the
effect of money when united to that useful agency, are not of much
avail without it, and will not supply curtains and carpet, paint,
varnishing, and general upholstery. There was not a superfluous
ornament, and there were many in the drawing-rooms at Woolgreaves very
offensive to her instinctively correct taste,--whose price would not
have materially altered the aspect of Marian Ashurst's home, as she
had recognised with much secret bitterness of spirit, on her first
visit to the Creswells. She would have made the old house pretty and
pleasant, if she could, especially while he lived, to whom its
prettiness and pleasantness might have brought refreshment of spirit,
and a little cheerfulness in the surroundings of his toilsome life;
but she loved it, notwithstanding its dulness and its frigid
shabbiness, and the prospect of being obliged to leave it gave her
exquisite pain. Marian was surprised when she discovered that her
feelings on this point were keener than those of her mother. She had
anticipated, with shrinking and reluctance of whose intensity she felt
ashamed, the difficulty she should experience when that last worst
necessity must arise, when her mother must leave the home of so many
years, and the scene of her tranquil happiness. Mrs. Ashurst had been
a very happy woman, notwithstanding her delicate health, and the
difficulties it had brought upon the little household. In the first
place, she was naturally of a placid temperament. In the second, her
husband told her as little as possible of the constantly pressing,
hopelessly inextricable trouble of his life. And lastly, Mrs.
Ashurst's inexperience prevented her realising danger in the future
from any source except that one whence it had actually come, fallen in
its fullest, fatalmost might--the sickness and death of her husband.
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