Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance
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"I am very sorry I have caused you pain, Captain Lockhart, but I shall
never marry."
He rises and looks down at her with his handsome face grown strangely
pale and grave, his blue eyes dim and heavy.
"So be it, Lady Vera," he answers, folding his arms across his broad
breast. "You know what is best for you, but, ah, lovely one, if you
could know how sweet were the hopes you have slain this hour you could
not choose but weep over my saddened life."
She put up her white hand imploringly.
"Forbear, Captain Lockhart. You cannot guess what pangs are aching in
my breast or you would spare me your reproaches. Be pitiful and leave
me."
"Not here," he says, looking up and down the flowery lane. "Let me take
you back to the house, Lady Vera. We cannot trust these autumnal skies.
It may rain at any moment."
"As you will," she answers, wearily, and rising, retraces her steps by
his side. But this time they speak no word to each other and the fair
young countess flies up to her room, and flings herself down on her
couch to weep such tears as have never rained from those lovely eyes
before, for a great happiness and a great sorrow have come into her
life, as it were, together.
"For I love him," she moans to herself. "I love him, but as Heaven
sees me, I did not know it. It all came to me like a flash when he was
telling me how he loved me. Oh, God, what happiness is possible to me,
and yet beyond my reach."
She lies still weeping bitterly, and recalling in all its bitterness
that midnight marriage by the side of her dying mother.
"Oh! what a blind mistake it was," she weeps. "But for Leslie Noble
I might marry the man I love. I might go back to America with him. I
might tell him the story of my oath of vengeance, and he would help me
to find my enemy and punish her for her sin."
The day drags wearily. In the afternoon Vera goes down to the library
in search of something to read. Gliding softly in she finds it tenanted
by Captain Lockhart, who is busy over a fresh batch of papers from the
United States. He glances up as she is about withdrawing, and springs
to his feet with courteous grace.
"Pray do not let me frighten you, Lady Vera. I will take my budget of
papers, and be off," he exclaims.
"No, I do not wish to disturb you," she answers. "I am in search of
something to read myself."
"Pray take your choice from among my papers," he replies, gravely, but
kindly, and half-listlessly Lady Vera turns them over and selects one
at random.
Captain Lockhart places a chair for her and returns to his reading,
thinking that the best way to place her at her ease. His heart yearns
over the beautiful, pale, suffering face, but he does not dream of her
sorrow, and he has no right to comfort her, so he turns his glance
away, and, looking round again a little later, sees that Countess Vera
has quietly swooned away in her chair, and that the American newspaper
has slipped from her lap to the floor.