Little sweetheart : $b or, Norman De Vere's protegee — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Little sweetheart : $b or, Norman De Vere's protegee
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Despite her jealousy, despite her caprice, Camille adored her young
husband; and as the thought of what had happened awhile ago rushed
over her mind, and she realized how nearly she had lost him, she did
not regret the terrible deed she had done. She rejoiced rather in the
cleverness with which she had rid herself of her terrible foe.
Now and then, in the pauses of their talk, there came to her a thought
of Robert Lacy, and she wondered if his dead body would ever be found.
Would Lord Stuart ever know what had become of his servant? for such
she had gathered from his words he was. She shuddered violently at
thought of the danger she had been in at the hotel. Well, it was all
over now. She was free--safe! The swirling river was swiftly bearing
away all evidence of her ghastly crime. Oh, God! how cruelly she had
hated the man whom she had sent to his death; yet she would not have
had his death on her hands could she have helped it.
“But there was no other way.” She shuddered over and over as she lay
sleepless by her beloved’s side through the long hours of the night,
for the horror of bloodshed was upon her. She would never sleep sweetly
again. She would wake trembling many a time with the sound of the river
soughing in her ears, to live over in memory that scene beneath the
cypress-trees; to see the dark, fiendish face of Robert Lacy; to feel
him struggle in her arms as she struck the knife into his breast; to
sicken as the hot blood spurted into her face and deluged her dress.
She would remember always how much water it had taken to wash the
stains away, and how guiltily she had stolen home in the twilight
gloom, thankful for once that Finette was gone, and that she had no
prying maid to take notice when she crept into her own room of the wet
and draggled clothes she wore, and of the shivering fit that seized her
as she fell on the floor, moaning faintly:
“Oh, God, I did not think I would ever be a murderess! I betrayed him
to the vigilantes, I know, but their hands drew the fatal rope, not
mine. I believed him dead so long that even his memory had grown dim
in my mind till I saw and knew him again. But I would not have killed
him if I could have bought him off. It was his own fault--brutal and
relentless ever, he brought his fate on himself. I--I--did not let
Finette murder that child, much as I hated her. It seemed too horrible.
But sin has fallen on me, anyway. Ah! now I know why Lord Stuart’s
face was so strangely familiar. He was in the crowd around the
gallows-tree. I wonder if he saw my face there? But, thank Heaven! no,
for I remember that I fled from the scene as if pursued by fiends, and
soon made good my escape to my father.”
From those wild mutterings she had to drag herself up to dress and meet
her husband, who was coming straight from the presence of innocent
Little Sweetheart, to meet the wife who had rushed wildly from that
terrible scene by the river, with blood-stained hands, to his embrace.