The Beauty and the Bolshevist — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Beauty and the Bolshevist
John Stuart Mill · en
Since she had left him she had been immersed again in her old life—her
old friends—and the result had been to make her wonder if her
experience with Ben had been as wonderful as it had seemed. When she
stopped for him she had been almost prepared to find that the wild joy
of their meetings had been something accidental and temporary, and that
only a stimulating and pleasant friendship was left. But as soon as she
saw that he really regarded their differences seriously, all her own
prudence and doubt melted away. She knew she was ready to make any
sacrifices for him, and in view of that all talk of obstacles was
folly.
She stopped the car on the point of the island, with the open sea on
one hand, the harbor on the other. In front of them the lightship was
moving with a slow, majestic roll, and to the right was the long
festoon of Narragansett lights, and as they stopped the lighted bulk of
the New York boat appeared, making its way toward Point Judith.
His prolonged silence began to frighten her.
“Ben,” she said, “do you seriously mean that you believe friendship
between us is impossible?”
“Friendship, nothing,” answered Moreton. “I love you.”
He said it as if it had always been understood between them, as of
course it had, but the instant he said it, he gave her a quick,
appealing look to see how she would take so startling an assertion.
If Crystal had poured out just what was in her mind at that second she
would have answered: “Of course you do. I’ve known that longer than you
have. And can’t you see that if I had had any doubt about its being
true, I’d have taken steps to make it true? But, as I really did not
doubt it, I’ve been able to be quite passive and leave it mostly to
you, which I so much prefer.”
But rigorous candor is rarely attained, and Crystal did not say this.
In fact, for a few seconds she did not say anything, but merely allowed
her eyes to shine upon him, with the inevitable result that at the end
of precisely six seconds of their benevolent invitation he took her in
his arms and kissed her. It was a very unprotected point, and several
cars were standing not too far away, but Crystal, who had an excellent
sense of proportion, made no objection whatever. She was being proved
right in two important particulars—first, that she was a human being,
and second, that there was no barrier between them. She was very
generous about it. She did not say, “Where’s your barrier now?” or
anything like that; she simply said nothing, and the barrier passed out
of the conversation and was no more seen.
Very soon, alleging that she must get home at the time at which she
usually did get home from dinners, she took him back; but she soothed
him with the promise of an uninterrupted day to follow.