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Before she could reply a poor, melancholy-mad wretch came up to them
with the startling complaint:
“I have been dead a week, and they will not bury me! I went into the
deadhouse and got into a coffin, but four men shook me out of it, and
said it was a shocking misfit! Do you know where I can find a coffin
for myself, doctor?”
One of the most gruesome of all the manias of the melancholy-mad
patient is the fixed conviction of one’s death and impending burial.
Doctor Rupert had met with the hallucination before, but coming at
this moment of his budding happiness, it struck him with a strange
chill like an evil omen, as if the shadow of a grave stretched dark and
forbidding between their hearts.
They turned to the poor lunatic, a pale young man whose mind had given
way at college from overstudy, in a sort of dismay, and Doctor Rupert
exclaimed with unusual impoliteness:
“Do go away, Alden, with your dismal croaking! You are not really dead,
you know, but only in a trance, and presently you will come out of it,
and thank your lucky stars that you were not buried alive.”
But the maniac tossed back the long hair from his pale brow dejectedly
and protested firmly:
“You are mistaken. I am dead, and it is time to bury me! Martin is
dead, also, and he was saying to me just now that it is not right for
old Charles, that grinning darky over there in his red monkey suit, to
be playing the fiddle and dancing when there are so many of us dead and
unburied. It is not the kind of music for a funeral. He ought to play
the dead march.”
“Nonsense!” answered the young doctor; but Alden lingered, gabbling on
vacantly:
“I have a note up my sleeve to slip to the directors when they come
again, complaining of the superintendent for not having us buried when
we are dead. He spends too much time flirting with Miss Blue and the
others, and neglects us. I’ll bet you a dime the directors will make
him squirm when they read my note. Want to see it?” cordially.
Doctor Rupert shook his head kindly. He had already seen several of
these Round Robins gotten up by querulous patients and complaining of
everybody and everything. The directors were always deluged with them
when they met, and usually comforted the writers with tobacco.
“Now, I will tell you, Alden, why you and Martin have not gotten your
caskets yet,” the young doctor said, concluding to humor his whim. “It
is because you have not given your order, and the superintendent does
not know what style you want. Take my advice, and go and ask him for
the style book on undertaking, and you and Martin can make your own
selections. Fashions in caskets have changed, you know.”
Alden listened attentively with his eyes cast down, and replied
briskly:
“I shall choose a metallic casket, hermetically sealed, so that the
rascally doctors cannot steal me out and cut up my head to find what
was the matter with my brain!”