The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8
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She looked up at the neat respectable house-front, the best in the
court, at the shrouded windows of the room where still her spirit
lingered. Next week she would stand firm and pay the rent at the door.
Better still, the inspiration came together with the sound of the
Brooms’ voices behind her, slip it into the letter-box. The Sheffields
were banished. The scene ahead held now no shadow but the weekly call of
the raucous-voiced, knocker-slamming men from the Snow-white laundry
that had for so long impersonally fetched and returned her things,
losing nothing, and now turning out to be linked to its delighted
clients not as she had imagined by some fresh, kindly, middle-aged
woman, but by these grubby cigarette-smoking, impatient men with the
voices of mutinous slaves.
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It was not only Mrs. Philps who was dumb. The girls, too, came up in
pensive amazement through the darkness and smells of the lower floors to
arrive silent on the bleak top landing. Miriam displayed the rooms,
making much, as they stood about gathering up with trained eyes the
mournful details, of the general loftiness, the large windows, the many
doors. On the way up to the attic she remembered that she had not shown
the painted ceiling.
Since the first shock of Miss Holland’s furniture she had forgotten the
existence of the ancient splendour brooding above. Each going into the
little room had brought the hope of finding it changed, less gloomy,
less dull and lifeless. Until accepting, she had ceased to see anything
but the light travelling through the square window to die. Reappearing
now in her mind, the faded ceiling restored her first vision of the
rooms. The way they had seemed porous to the sound and sunlight of the
open.
Her visitors stood in the doorway of the attic looking in vain for
something upon which their eyes might rest. In her half of the bedroom,
kept till the last, they would find what they sought, feel radiating
there the more brightly for their coming, something of what it was that
held her life entranced and held them to herself. She, too, would feel
it; the incommunicable quality that crept sooner or later into her
surroundings, deep and central within the air. It was there waiting for
everyone, within their own surroundings. But so many seemed to ignore
it, and others, chafing, imagined it elsewhere, far off.
The girls made straight for the bureau, admiring, repeating phrases of
warm admiration in tones whose relief voiced all their earlier
embarrassment.
“Pretty,” said Mrs. Philps, who had come down the room to look.
“Imitation Chippendale.”