Noel gone! Gregor gone! It seemed incredible. Those two dear boys so
full of bounding life and energy. Gone!--lying dead and cold under the
French mud. She could not quite realise it yet. She felt numbed with
the shock of it. Dead! Never to return to them! Never to see them in
this life again! Oh, Gregor, Gregor!
But she must be brave, for, just across the Common there, was Gregor’s
mother in happy unconsciousness of the blow that had befallen them. Oh,
it would hurt her. It would bruise her. It might break her. She, Honor,
must be brave and strong and help her to bear it.
And as she breasted the wind, and the sleet bit at her face, her mind
began to work again with acute clarity of understanding. It carried her
above herself. She saw--as though scales had fallen from the eyes of
her spirit--that this fearsome Death which seemed so dreadful was not
the end but the beginning. Their boys were possibly--probably--nearer
to them even than they had been in life. The dear bodies might be lying
there in France, but all that had been really _them_ was living still
and might be--would be, she thought, watching them now, near at hand,
nearer than ever before.
So full was her mind of the thought that she actually found herself
glancing upwards into the sleety sky as if she might catch sight of
them.
There was only gray sky and whirling sleet up there, but the belief was
strong in her and she went on comforted.
The maid greeted her with her usual bright smile, and helped her off
with her dripping coat. They all knew how things stood between Mr
Gregor and her and cordially approved.
“Is Mrs MacLean down yet, Maggie?” she asked.
“Not yet, Miss Honor. She was feeling the cold, so she said she would
have her breakfast in bed,”--as she showed her into the morning-room at
the back, where a wood fire was burning brightly with cheerful hissings
and spittings and puffs of smoke, and everything spoke of comfort and
the quiet joy of life.
“Will you please ask her if I can see her at once, Maggie?”
“Yes, Miss Honor. Not bad news, I do hope, Miss,” but she knew that it
was, for Honor’s face was tragic in spite of herself.
“Don’t hint it, Maggie. Just tell her I must see her,” and Maggie went
quietly, as though she savoured the coming news already.
A table with newspapers and books and magazines was drawn up near the
fire alongside Mrs MacLean’s favourite chair. On it was a photograph of
Gregor in his uniform, in a massive silver frame. He looked bravely out
at her. Just his own dear look as she knew him best. Quiet, reserved,
but with the smiles just below and ready to break through on smallest
provocation.
And it was all over. He was gone,--lying under the blood-stained soil
across there. No,--she was to remember--he was more alive than ever,
nearer to them than ever,--but--ah me!--they would never see him again
on this side.
She was still bending over the photograph when Maggie came in, with a
quiet, “Will you please to come up, Miss Honor?”
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