But long before Garge’s mother had roused herself again her visitor
had gone. The old woman was tired with the exertions she had made on
her behalf, and had taken just the smallest drop of gin to quiet her
own perturbed feelings before she turned into bed. But Nell had soon
started up from her short, feverish slumber, and lain before the fire
with wide-open eyes, staring at the flickering flames, and wondering
what the next move of her unhappy life would be. The old woman’s
words rang in her ears. ‘What! no father nor mother? Pore gal!’ How
ungrateful it had been of her not to remember that she had both father
and mother, before she took the fatal plunge which might have separated
her from them for ever. Already she felt ashamed of her impetuosity
and despair. She resolved, as she lay there, that she would go back to
her parents and her home. She would return to Panty-cuckoo Farm, and
try to forget that she had ever left it. It would be sweet, she thought
feverishly, to smell the woodbine and the roses again--it would cool
her brain to lie down on the dewy grass and press her hot cheek to the
wild thyme and the daisies that bedecked it. Her mind was still in a
bewildered and chaotic state, or Nell would have dreaded the questions
that awaited her at Panty-cuckoo Farm; but, luckily, it led her in
the right direction. A sudden horror of the publicity she had courted
by her rash act took possession of her, and she panted to get up and
away before the good Samaritans who had brought her back to life were
able to gain any particulars regarding her name or former condition.
With this desire strong upon her, she raised herself, weak as she
was, and glanced at her surroundings. The logs still burnt brightly
on the hearth; the old woman snored mellifluously on a pallet in the
corner--for the rest, she was alone. The clothes they had taken off
her were hung out to dry on a chair. Nell felt them. They were fit to
put on again. She raised herself gently and resumed her attire, which
consisted of a dark print dress, a black mantle and a large straw
hat, which had not become detached from her head when she went under
the water. But she could not go without leaving some token of her
gratitude behind her. She felt in the pocket of her dress. Her purse
was still there, and it contained several pounds. Nell took out two,
and, wrapping them in a piece of paper, placed them in a conspicuous
position on the chair. Then she crept softly across the cellar, and,
climbing the stone steps that led to the entrance of the tenement,
found, to her relief, that the outer door was ajar. There were too many
people in the house, and they were of too lawless a kind for anyone to
notice her departure, or think it singular if they had. The dawn was
just breaking as Nell stepped into the open air; and, though she knew
she must look very forlorn, the few wayfarers whom she encountered
looked more forlorn still, and no one molested or questioned her. She
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