Of her own will she raised her arms and put them about his neck, laying
down her face on one of them, so that her lips were close against his
ear.
"At the first," she said, "I liked and admired you because I saw you
were good and noble. Then I trusted you, and made your truth my anchor
in the awful seas of trouble I was tossed in. Then I came to reverence
and almost worship you for the highness that is in you, and then, oh,
then after my baby died and my other dreadful sorrow came, against my
will, in spite of hard fighting and struggling and trying, I went a step
higher yet and loved you, with a love that takes in all the rest--that
is admiration, and trust, and reverence, and love in one. Oh," she said
with a great sigh, "but it is all in vain! I cannot tell you--I cannot!
I say the utmost, and it seems pale and poor and miserably weak. You do
not understand the love you have called into being in my poor, broken
heart. I thought I should have the comfort of feeling I had told you. I
feel only that I have failed! Oh, before we part, I want you to know
how I love you--how the stress of it is bursting my heart--how the
mightiness of it seems to expand my soul until it touches Heaven. Oh,
if I could only ease my heart of its great weight of love by finding
words to tell you."
He put his lips close to her ear.
"One kiss," he said softly, and then turned them to meet hers.
Christine gave him the kiss, and it was as he had said. The stress upon
her heart was loosened. She felt that she had told him all.
"You are mine," he said, in a calm, low voice of controlled exultation,
although, even as he said it, he loosed her from his arms and suffered
her to move away from him and sink into a chair. He came and sat down
opposite her, repeating the words he had spoken.
"No," she said, "I am my own! I am the stronger to be so, now that the
whole truth is known to you. Mr. Noel, I have only to tell you good-by.
To-night must be the very last of it."
"Mr. Noel!" he threw the words back to her, with a little scornful
laugh. "You can never call me that again, without feeling it the
hollowest pretence! I tell you you are mine!"
The assured, determined calm of his tones and looks began to frighten
her. She saw the struggle before her assuming proportions that made her
fear for herself--not for the strength of her resolve, but for her power
to carry it out. She could only repeat, as if to fortify herself:
"I will never marry you."
"Why?" he asked.
"Because--ah, because I love you too much. Be merciful, and let that
thought plead for me."
"It is for the same reason that I will never give you up. It is no use
to oppose me now, Christine. You are mine and I am yours."
"But if you know that you make me suffer--"
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