'Why shouldn't I live for anything?' she asked.
'Because life's too dear. And its pleasures are not white but piebald.'
'I understand,' said Victoria, 'but I must live.'
'_Je n'en vois pas la nécessité_,' quoted Farwell smiling. 'Never mind
what that means,' he added, 'I'm only a pessimist.'
The next few weeks seemed to create in Victoria a new personality. Her
reading was so carefully selected that every line told. Farwell knew the
hundred best books for a working girl; he had a large library composed
mostly of battered copies squeezed out of his daily bread. Victoria's
was the appetite of a gorgon. In another month she had absorbed _Odd
Women_, _An Enemy of the People_, _The_ _Doll's House_, _Alton Locke_,
and a translation of _Germinal_. Every night she read with an intensity
which made her forget that March chilled her to the bone; poring over
the book, her eyes a few inches from the candle, she soaked in
rebellion. When the cold nipped too close into her she would get up and
wrap herself in the horsecloth and read with savage application, rushing
to the core of the thought. She was no student, so she would skip a hard
word. Besides, in those moods, when the spirit bounds in the body like a
caged bird, words are felt, not understood.
Betty was still hovering round her, a gentle presence. She knew what was
going on and was frightened. A new Victoria was rising before her, a
woman very charming still, but extraordinary, incomprehensible. Often
Victoria would snub her savagely, then take her hand as they stood
together at the counter bawling for food and drink. And as Victoria grew
hard and strong, Betty worshipped her more as she would have worshipped
a strong man.
Yet Betty was not happy. Victoria lived now in a state of excitement and
hunger for solitude. She took no interest in things that Betty could
understand. Their Sunday walks had been ruthlessly cut now and then, for
the fury was upon Victoria when eating the fruits of the tree. When they
were together now Victoria was preoccupied; she no longer listened to
the club gossip, nor did she ask to be told once more the story of
Betty's early days.
'Do you know you're sweated?' she said suddenly one day.
Betty's eyes opened round and blue.
'Sweated,' she said. 'I thought only people in the East End were
sweated.'
'The world's one big East End,' snapped Victoria.
Betty shivered. Farwell might have said that.
'You're sweated if you get two pounds a week,' continued Victoria.
'You're sweated when you buy a loaf, sweated when you ride in a bus,
sweated when they cremate you.'
'I don't understand,' said Betty.
'All profits are sweated,' quoted Victoria from a pamphlet.
'But people must make profits,' protested Betty.
'What for?' asked Victoria.
'How are people to live unless they make profits?' said Betty. 'Aren't
our wages profits?'
Victoria was nonplussed for a moment and became involved. 'No, our wages
are only wages; profit is the excess over our wages.'
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