Having discovered that Cairns was squeezable Victoria felt more hopeful
as to the future. She was his only luxury and made the most of his
liking for jewellery and furs. She even hit upon the more ingenious
experiment of interesting Barbezan Soeurs in her little speculations.
The device was not novel: for a consideration of ten per cent these
bustling dressmakers were ready to provide fictitious bills and even
solicitor's letters couched in frigidly menacing terms. Cairns laughed
and paid solidly. He had apparently far more money than he needed.
Victoria was almost an economy; without her he would have lost a fortune
at bridge, kept a yacht perhaps and certainly a motor. As it was he was
quite content with his poky chambers in St James', a couple of clubs
which he never thought of entering, the house in Elm Tree Place and a
stock of good cigars.
Cairns was happy, and Victoria labouring lightly for large profits, was
contented too. Theirs were lazy lives, for Cairns was a man who could
loaf. He loafed so successfully that he did not even think of
interfering with Victoria's reading. She now read steadily and
voraciously; she eschewed novels, fearing the influence of sentiment.
'It will be time for sentiment by and by,' she sometimes told herself.
Meanwhile she armoured her heart and sharpened her wits. The earlier
political opinions which had formed in her mind under the pressure of
toil remained unchanged but did not develop. She recognised herself as a
parasite and almost gloried in it. She evolved as a system of philosophy
that one's conduct in life is a matter of alternatives. Nothing was good
and nothing was evil; things were better than others or worse and there
was an end of her morality. Victoria had no patience with theories. One
day, much to Cairns surprise, she violently flung Ingersoll's essays
into the fender.
'Steady on,' said Cairns, 'steady on, old girl.'
'Such rot,' she snarled.
'Hear, hear,' said Cairns, picking up the book and looking at its title.
'Serve you right for reading that sort of stuff. I can't make you out,
Vic.'
Victoria looked at him with a faint smile, but refused to assign a cause
for her anger. In fact she had suddenly been irritated by Ingersoll's
definition of morality. 'Perceived obligation,' she thought. 'And I
don't perceive any obligation!' She consoled herself suddenly with the
thought that her amorality was a characteristic of the superman.
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