Barum West threw down his pen, and looked about his attic with a gloomy
face. The light from his one window, a dormer facing the east, was too
faint to permit his writing any longer, even had he been in the mood;
and how far he was from desiring to go on with his work was shown by his
seizing the sheets which were the result of his afternoon's labor, and
angrily tearing them into bits.
The room was not unlike the traditional abode of that melancholy
thing, a poor-devil author. The roof sloped from the middle of the
ceiling almost to the floor, the niche of the dormer-window where his
writing-table stood being the only part of the eastern side of the
chamber where one could stand upright. In the corner on the opposite
side stood an old-fashioned, high-posted bedstead; a bureau, over which
hung a tarnished mirror of antique frame, was placed opposite the tall
stove, in which was carefully cherished a frugal coal fire; a black
trunk was pushed under the eaves, while some pine shelves held the young
man's unimposing library. Both carpet and wall-paper were dingy and
faded, and in the darkening winter twilight the attic was gloomy enough
to depress the spirits of one in a frame of mind far more cheerful than
that in which West found himself.
Most authors are too unhappily familiar with the fact that a financial
crisis is apt to be so desperately unproductive of marketable ideas that
even the excitement of a definite order is likely, at such a time, to
beget in the brain rather a confused sense of impotence than a creative
inspiration. One must be well seasoned in the vicissitudes of a literary
career to be able to do his best under the combined pressure of sore
need and the necessity of seizing at once an unusual opportunity. West
was still young in his profession, as well as in years, and the wild
exhilaration of receiving a conditional commission had given place to an
awful feeling of despairing helplessness. A friend who had considerable
confidence in him, and, what was more to the purpose, some acquaintance
and influence in theatrical circles, had persuaded a manager to promise
to consider an extravaganza from the pen of the would-be playwright, and
Barum felt as if his whole future depended upon his success.
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