"Mother," said the spirit, "I have been permitted to come to you and to
show to you what would have been my career if I had not died whilst
young, and fresh, and innocent. You have to thank Jacob Van Heeren that
he saved me from such a life of infamy, and such an evil death by my own
hand. You should thank, and not curse him." She was breathing heavily.
Her heart beat so fast that her brain span; she fell on her knees.
"Mother," the apparition continued, "there were seventeen pebbles cast
into the well."
"Yes, Aneurin," she whispered.
"And there is a seventeenth white flag. With the sixteenth Jacob Van
Heeren died. The seventeenth is reserved for you."
"Aneurin! I am not fit to die."
"Mother, it must be, I must lay the white flag over your head."
"Oh! my son, my son!"
"It is so ordained," he proceeded; "but there are Love and Mercy on
high, and you shall not be veiled with it till you have made your peace.
You have sinned. You have thrust yourself into the council-chamber of
God. You have claimed to exercise vengeance yourself, and not left it to
Him to whom vengeance in right belongs."
"I know it now," breathed the widow.
"And now you must atone for the curses by prayers. You have brought
Jacob Van Heeren to his death by your imprecations, and now, fold your
hands and pray to God for him--for him, your son's murderer. Little have
you considered that his acts were due to ignorance, resentment for what
he fancied were wrongs, and to having been reared in a mutilated and
debased form of Christianity. Pray for him, that God may pardon his many
and great transgressions, his falsehood, his treachery, his
self-righteousness. You who have been so greatly wronged are the right
person to forgive and to pray for his soul. In no other way can you so
fully show that your heart is turned from wrath to love. Forgive us our
trespasses as we forgive them that trespass against us."
She breathed a "Yes."
Then she clasped her hands. She was already on her knees, and she prayed
first the great Exemplar's prayer, and then particularly for the man who
had wrecked her life, with all its hopes.
And as she prayed the lines in her face softened, and the lips lost
their hardness, and the fierce light passed utterly away from her eyes,
in which the lamp of Charity was once more lighted, and the tears formed
and rolled down her cheeks.
And still she prayed on, bathed in the pearly light from the summer sky
at night. Without, in the firmament, twinkled a star; and a night-bird
began to sing.
"And now, mother, pray for yourself."
Then she crossed her hands over her bosom, and bowed her head, full of
self-reproach and shame; and as she prayed, the spirit of her son raised
the White Flag above her and let it sail down softly, lightly over the
loved head, and as it descended there fell from it as it were a dew of
pale fire, and it rested on her head, and fell about her, and she sank
forward with her face upon the floor. R.I.P.
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