"I would very much have liked to have had an
opportunity of meeting you, that I might tell you what
I am about to write and very much more. Since I heard
your address I so wanted to have a talk with you, as I
have so many questions to ask you, and above all to
tell you what your message has done for me.
"I am the wife of a lawyer, and at the age of
twenty-two I graduated from college. A year afterwards
I married Mr. Horton and have been married seven years.
My tastes have always been intellectual with a strong
desire to lead and to be above those around me. I had
little sympathy for the poor and ignorant, and those I
had little in common with I kept aloof from. My friends
looked to me as an authority on most subjects, as I
travelled in Europe two years after I was married. It
will do me good now to confess to you and tell you, I
was cold, vain, self-conceited and my purpose in
reading and travelling was not to help those around me,
but to add glory and fame to myself, and to be thought
a very superior minded person. I carried my head very
high and associated with but few. After seeing you and
listening to your address, I can hardly describe the
state of mind it left me in. But it was something like
a lady might feel when she is dressed in her best and
is very proud of her attire. While she is in that frame
of mind she meets some one who has garments much
superior to hers, and she sees that the clothes she is
wearing are unbecoming and do not fit her, and that she
has been under an illusion in thinking they were so
rich and fine. For when the other garments are shown
her, she feels she had been the most mistaken person in
the world and longs to cast off the garments she is
wearing, that she may put on these superior ones.
"Now that was my case exactly. I was the woman attached
to what I thought were my fine clothes. You were the
one with the elegant new gowns, and when you showed me
so clearly that my own costume was nothing but filthy
rags, I was ready to take the superior garments with
which you presented me.
"When I think what a foolish, proud, vain woman I have
been, I feel like covering my face with shame; like
hiding my head somewhere. I intend that these feelings
of remorse shall stimulate me towards manifesting the
Divine, in love, in patience, in humility, and in
meekness.
"I will go among the poor and ignorant and become one
with them, in order to raise them to the realization of
their Divine nature.
"May they see in me that love for them which I saw in
you for all, and it will give me pleasure to tell those
of my own circle how sweet the Divine life has become
to me, and may I be a spiritual help to them.
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