A call : $b The tale of two passionsFord, Ford Madox
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A call : $b The tale of two passions
Ford, Ford Madox
English fiction -- 20th century
“‘The peace of God, which passeth all understanding....’ I’ve always
thought that those words, coming where they do, are the most beautiful
thing in any rite. It’s like ...” He seemed to be about to enter on a
long train of thought, but suddenly he said, “Oh, my dear,” and he laid
his head on her shoulder, his eyes closed, and the lines of his face
drooping. They sat silent for a long time, and slowly into hers there
came an expression of a deep and restful tenderness, a minute softening
of all the lines and angles of his chiselled countenance; and at last
he said, very low: “Oh, you must end it!” and she answered in an echo
of his tone: “No, no. Don’t ask me. It isn’t fair;” and she knew that
if she looked at his tired face again, or if again his voice sounded so
weary, that she would surrender to his terms.
He answered: “Oh, I’m not asking that. I promised that I wouldn’t, and
I’m not. It’s the other thing that you must end. You don’t know what it
means to me.”
She said: “What?” with an expression of bewilderment, a queer numb
expression, and whilst he brought out in slow and rather broken
phrases, “It’s an unending strain ... And I feel I am responsible ...
It goes on night and day ... I can’t sleep ... I can’t eat ... I have
got the conviction that suddenly he might grow violent and murder....”
Her face was hardening all the while. It grew whiter and her eyes
darkened.
“You’re talking of Dudley Leicester?” she said, and slowly she removed
her arm from beneath his hand. She stood up in front of him, clear and
cool in her grey dress, and he recovered his mastery of himself.
“But, of course,” he went on, “that’s only a sort of nightmare, and
you’re going to put an end to it. If we start back now you could see
him to-night.”
She put her hands behind her back, and said with a distinct and clear
enunciation: “I am not going to.” He looked at her without much
comprehension.
“Well, to-morrow, then. Next week. Soon?”
“I am not going to at all,” she brought out still more hardly. “Not
to-day. Not this week. Not ever.” And before his bewilderment she began
to speak with a passionate scorn: “This is what I was to discover
beneath the weathercock! Do you consider what a ridiculous figure you
out? You bring me here to talk about that man. What’s he to you, or you
to him? Why should you maunder and moon and worry about him?”
“But ...” Robert Grimshaw said, and she burst into a hard laugh.
“No wonder you can’t give in to me if you’ve got to be thinking of him
all the time. Well, put it how you will, I have done with him, and
I’ve done with you. Go your own idiotic ways together. I’ve done with
you.” And with her hands stretched down in front of her she snapped the
handle of her parasol, her face drawn and white. She looked down at the
two pieces contemptuously, and threw them against the iron-bolted, oak
church door. “That’s an end of it,” she said.
Grimshaw looked up at her, with his jaw dropping in amazement.
“But you’re jealous!” he said.
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