A Charming Fellow, Volume IITrollope, Frances Eleanor
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A Charming Fellow, Volume II
Trollope, Frances Eleanor
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Nevertheless, she spoke Rhoda's praises now ungrudgingly. Nay, more; she
believed Powell to be capable of the highest self-sacrifice; she
believed that he would welcome a prospect of happiness and security for
Rhoda, even though it should shut the door for ever on any lingering
hopes he might retain of winning her. So, bracing herself to a strong
effort--which seemed to strain not only the nerves, but the very
muscles, of her fragile frame as she sat almost upright, grasping the
arms of her chair with both hands--she added, "And, as I know you have
that rare gift of love which can rejoice in looking at a happiness it
may never share, I will say to you in confidence that I believe Rhoda is
honourably sought in marriage by a good man--a man who--it is not
needful to speak at length of him"--indeed, her throat was dry, and her
courage desperately at bay--"but he is a good, high-minded man; one who
will value and respect his wife; one who admires and loves Rhoda very
fervently."
It was magnanimously said. The words, as she uttered them, sounded the
knell of her own youth and hope in her ears.
We believe that a beloved one is dead. We have kissed the cold lips. We
have kissed the unresponsive hand. Yes; the beloved one is dead. We
surely believe it.
But, no! The death-bell sounds, beating with chill, heavy fingers on our
very heart-strings, and then we awake to a sudden confirmation of our
grief. The bell sings its loud monotone, over roof-tree and grave-stone,
piercing through the murmur of busy life in streets and homes, and then
we know that we had not hitherto believed; that in some nook and secret
fold of heart or brain a wild, formless hope had been lurking that all
was not really over. Only the implacable mental clang carries conviction
with its vibrations into the broad daylight and the common air, and the
tears gush out as if our sorrow were born anew.
Even so felt Minnie Bodkin when she had put her secret thought into
words. The speaking of the words could not hasten their fulfilment. But
yet it seemed to her as if, in saying them, she had signed some
bond--had formally renounced even the solace of a passing fancy that
might flit, fairy-bright, into the dimness of her life; had given up the
object of her silent passion by a covenant that was none the less
stringent because its utterance was simple and commonplace. She was
silent, breathing quickly, and lying back against the cushions after the
short speech that had cost her so much.
Powell remained quite still for a few seconds. Then suddenly removing
the screening hand, the almost intolerable lustre of his eyes broke upon
the startled woman opposite to him, as he said, with a strange smile,
"She is safe. She is happy for Time and Eternity. She has been ransomed
with a price."
"I knew that you would allow no selfish feeling to sway you," returned
Minnie, after an instant's pause. "I was right in feeling sure that you
would generously consider her happiness before your own."
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