A Comedy of Masks: A NovelDowson, Ernest Christopher
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A Comedy of Masks: A Novel
Dowson, Ernest Christopher
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Eve regarded them all strangely, vaguely, the terror gradually dying
out of her eyes--Lightmark expressionless and silent, as he had been
all through the interview; the woman trembling on Rainham's arm, who
stood beside her with his downcast eyes, the picture of conscious
guilt. A curious anguish too pale to be indignation plucked at her
heart-strings--anguish in which, unaccountably, the false charge
against her husband was scarcely considered; that had become
altogether remote and unreal, something barely historical, fading
already away in the dim shadows of the past. What hurt her, with a
dull pain which she could not analyse, was the sudden tarnishing of
a scarcely-admitted ideal by Rainham's deliberate confession, making
life appear for the moment intolerably sordid and mean. Would she
have owned to herself that, with an almost unconscious instinct, she
had judged these two men all along by a different standard? Hardly:
she loved her husband, and her marriage had not yet dissipated the
memory of those golden days of illusion preceding it, in which her
love had been of a finer kind. Only that time, in which it would
have been impossible for her to judge him, in which he could only do
right in her eyes, was gone. Occasions had arrived when they had
inevitably to differ, on which the girl had gently acquiesced--if
not without a touch of scorn--in his action, but had not felt
obliged to accept his point of view. There had been times when her
pride had suffered--for underneath her childish exterior, her air of
being just a dainty little figure of Watteau, she had a very
sensitive and delicate pride of her own--and then, if she had
succeeded in forgiving Lightmark, it had not been without an effort
which had made it difficult for her to pardon herself. Sometimes,
though she would scarcely have confessed it, her husband's mere
approbativeness had almost shocked her. It was good, no doubt, to be
popular, harmless even, to care for popularity--at least, one's
traditions declared nothing to the contrary; but to care so
exorbitantly as Lightmark appeared to do, to sacrifice so much to
one's enthusiasm for pleasing inferior people--people whom, behind
their backs, one was quite ready to tear to pieces, allowing them
neither intelligence nor virtue--in just that there seemed to her
some flaw of taste that was almost like a confession of failure.
Surely she loved him, and was ready to forgive him much: not for
worlds would she have confessed to disillusion. And yet, now and
again, when the rush and ostentation of their new life, with its
monotony of dinners and dances--so little like that which she had
anticipated as the future lot of a painter's wife--had left her
rather weary, a trifle sad, she had thought suddenly of her old
friend Philip Rainham, and the thought had solaced her. There is a
sort of pleasure, even when one is married to the most amiable of
husbands, and is getting quite old--very nearly twenty--in turning
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