“She is willing for our marriage to be dissolved.”
“Does that make my treachery to her less ignoble? If the thing stood on
any other ground than where you put it by these words, it would still
be wrong--a cruel, cowardly wrong to her; but to plead for it no more
than mere passion, is to clothe it with its vilest dress.”
“There are other reasons--many,” he said sullenly. “You wish to wield
influence in the rule of the people; I give you a chance. ’Twas but
yesterday I put the matter so to you.”
“The baseness of the act is not lessened by wrapping it about with
specious pleas. And I will be frank with you; for frankness in such a
crisis is best. I could never feel to you as a wife should feel toward
her husband. The shame of this wrong to my friend would ever be a
canker to blight all other thoughts, and make my life--our lives--one
lengthened monotone of remorse and pain.”
“I would leave that issue to time and my love. You did not think thus
until within the last few hours.”
“I will deal with you frankly, as I said. I understand you; and in some
part you are right. I love this man who is in your power. I believe him
good and true and noble; I am not ashamed of my love. Love comes to
every woman at some time in her life, and she is powerless to resist
it. That is our nature. This has come to me. Could I then wed another
man while yet the love for him burns like a fever, filling my heart
with thoughts of him, gladdening it with hopes for him; and forming
already more, far more, than half my life?”
“You are frank, as you say; but such frankness is ill hearing.”
“If it be ill to hear me speak of it--and I am calm enough to speak
without temper and say this not to anger but to prevail with you--if it
be ill for you to hear me speak of it, what would it be in the after
time to live ever with the knowledge of it? Think you that happiness
lies that way? You with the knowledge that my heart is given to another
man; I with the bitterness of remorse for the wrong you would have me
do, relieved only by the ever aching sorrow of a broken heart?”
“I wish to hear no more.”
“Nay, but you must hear me. Only a coward would shut his ears to the
truth; and you at least are no coward. You have not thought what kind
of thing this really is that you would do. Were I to wed you as you now
wish, we should grow to hate one another. Your passion would cool and
you would come to feel the bitterness of the mistake, the galling yoke
of the load on your life and would look on me as the cause.”
“You little know me, Gabrielle.”
“Then at least I know myself. I am but a girl and very human; and in
the long dark hours of my misery and unavailing remorse, my spirit,
unbroken--for we Malincourts are not easily broken--would revolt
against you as the cause. Would yours be happier? Have you thought what
life would be to be mated with a woman who hated you, as we Malincourts
can hate?”
“I love you. I think of naught else,” he said doggedly.
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