"Yes," she said. "Mr. St. Vincent told me about it. He met you for
the first time that night, I believe. You all fought royally on his
side,--you and Colonel Trethaway. He spoke his admiration unreservedly
and, to tell the truth, with enthusiasm."
Corliss made a gesture of depreciation.
"No! no! From what he said you must have behaved splendidly. And I
was most pleased to hear. It must be great to give the brute the rein
now and again, and healthy, too. Great for us who have wandered from
the natural and softened to sickly ripeness. Just to shake off
artificiality and rage up and down! and yet, the inmost mentor, serene
and passionless, viewing all and saying: 'This is my other self.
Behold! I, who am now powerless, am the power behind and ruleth still!
This other self, mine ancient, violent, elder self, rages blindly as
the beast, but 'tis I, sitting apart, who discern the merit of the
cause and bid him rage or bid him cease!' Oh, to be a man!"
Corliss could not help a humoring smile, which put Frona upon defence
at once.
"Tell me, Vance, how did it feel? Have I not described it rightly?
Were the symptoms yours? Did you not hold aloof and watch yourself
play the brute?"
He remembered the momentary daze which came when he stunned the man
with his fist, and nodded.
"And pride?" she demanded, inexorably. "Or shame?"
"A--a little of both, and more of the first than the second," he
confessed. "At the time I suppose I was madly exultant; then
afterwards came the shame, and I tossed awake half the night."
"And finally?"
"Pride, I guess. I couldn't help it, couldn't down it. I awoke in the
morning feeling as though I had won my spurs. In a subconscious way I
was inordinately proud of myself, and time and again, mentally, I
caught myself throwing chests. Then came the shame again, and I tried
to reason back my self-respect. And last of all, pride. The fight was
fair and open. It was none of my seeking. I was forced into it by the
best of motives. I am not sorry, and I would repeat it if necessary."
"And rightly so." Frona's eyes were sparkling. "And how did Mr. St.
Vincent acquit himself?"
"He? . . . . Oh, I suppose all right, creditably. I was too busy
watching my other self to take notice."
"But he saw you."
"Most likely so. I acknowledge my negligence. I should have done
better, the chances are, had I thought it would have been of interest
to you--pardon me. Just my bungling wit. The truth is, I was too much
of a greenhorn to hold my own and spare glances on my neighbors."
So Corliss went away, glad that he had not spoken, and keenly
appreciating St. Vincent's craft whereby he had so adroitly forestalled
adverse comment by telling the story in his own modest, self-effacing
way.
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