"Our life at the farmhouse has become very quiet," she wrote. "Emily
improves slowly, for her nervous system has received a severe strain. I
told her that thee had sent messages to all the family, and asked if
she did not expect one. 'I've no right to any--there's no occasion for
any,' she faltered; but her eyes were very wistful and entreating.
'Well,' I said, 'I must clear my conscience, and since he sent thee
one, I must give it. He writes, 'Say to Miss Warren in reply that the
last words I spoke to her shall ever be true.' I suppose thee knows
what he means,' I said, smiling; 'I don't.' She buried her face in the
pillow again; but I think thy message did her good, for she soon fell
asleep, and looked more peaceful than at any time yet."
At last there came a letter saying, "Emily has left us and gone to a
cousin--a Mrs. Vining--who resides at Columbus, Ohio. She is much
better, but very quiet--very different from her old self. Father put
her on the train, and she will have to change cars only once. 'Emily,'
I said to her, 'thee can not go away without one word for Richard.' She
was deeply moved, but her resolute will gained the mastery. 'I am
trying to act for the best,' she said. 'He has appealed to the future:
the future must prove us both, for there must be no more mistakes.'
'Does thee doubt thyself, Emily?' 'I have reason to doubt myself, Mrs.
Yocomb,' she replied. 'But what does thy heart tell thee?' A deep
solemn look came into her eyes, and after a few moments she said,
'Pardon me, my dear friend, if I do not answer you fully. Indeed, I
would scarcely know how to answer you. I have entered on an experience
that is new and strange to me. I am troubled and frightened at myself.
I want to go away among strangers, where I can think and grow calm. I
want to be alone with my God. I should always be weak and vacillating
here. Moreover, Mr. Morton has formed an impression of me, of which,
perhaps, I cannot complain. This impression may grow stronger in his
mind. It has all been too sudden. His experiences have been too
intermingled with storm, delirium, and passion. He has not had time to
think any more than I have. In the larger sphere of work to which you
say he has been promoted he may find new interests that will be
absorbing. After a quiet and distant retrospect he may thank me for the
course I am taking.' 'Emily!' I exclaimed, 'for so tender-hearted a
girl thee is very strong.' 'No,' she replied, 'but because I have
learned my weakness I am going away from temptation.' I then asked, 'Is
thee willing I should tell Richard what thee has said?' After thinking
for some time she answered, 'Yes, let everything be based on the simple
truth. But tell him he must respect my action--he must leave me to
myself.' The afternoon before she left us, Adah and Reuben went over to
the village and got some beautiful rosebuds, and Adah brought them up
after tea. Emily was much touched, and kissed her again and again. Then
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