“Edward fancies that every one can be as energetic and active as
himself, and occasionally forgets what you have just so well remarked as
to the relative capacities of different people.”
“I want him to do something, to be something besides a dreamer!” burst
he in, almost angrily.
“Well, then,” said I, “you shall see me begin this moment, tor I will
get down here and walk briskly back to the town.” I called to the
postilions to pull up at the same time, and in spite of remonstrances,
entreaties,--almost beseeching from Mary Crofton,--I persisted in my
resolve, and bade them farewell.
Crofton was so much hurt that he could scarcely speak, and when he gave
me his hand it was in the coldest of manners.
“But you 'll keep our rendezvous, won't you!” said Mary; “we shall meet
at Rome.”
“I really wonder, Mary, how you can force our acquaintanceship where it
is so palpably declined. Good-bye,--farewell,” said he to me.
“Good-bye,” said I, with a gulp that almost choked me; and away drove
the carriage, leaving me standing in the train of dust it had raised.
Every crack of the postboys' whips gave me a shock as though I had felt
the thong on my own shoulders; and, at last, as sweeping round a turn of
the road the carriage disappeared from view, such was the sense of utter
desolation that came over me, that I sat down on a stone by the wayside,
overwhelmed. I do not know if I ever felt such an utter sense of
destitution as at that moment. “What a wealth of friends must a man
possess,” thought I, “who can afford to squander them in this fashion!
How could I have repelled the counsels that kindness alone could have
prompted? Surely Crofton must know far more of life than I did?” From
this I went on to inquire why it was that the world showed itself so
unforgiving to idleness in men of small fortune, since, if no burden to
the community, they ought to be as free as their richer brethren. It was
a puzzling theme, and though I revolved it long, I made but little of
it; the only solution that occurred to me was, that the idleness of the
humble man is not relieved by the splendors and luxuries which surround
a rich man's leisure, and that the world resents the pretensions of ease
unassociated with riches. In what a profound philosophy was it, then,
that Diogenes rolled his tub about the streets! There was a mock purpose
about it, that must have flattered his fellow-citizens. I feel assured
that a great deal of the butterfly-hunting and beetle-gathering that we
see around us is done in this spirit They are a set of idle folk anxious
to indulge their indolence without reproach.
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