American fiction -- 19th century; Artists -- Fiction
she gave him her hand, saying hastily, "Good-night, Mr. Van Berg;
I thank you. I--I--do not feel very well," and she passed swiftly
to a side door and disappeared.
Chapter XX. A Wretched Secret that Must be Kept.
The interview described in the previous chapter touched Van Berg
deeply, but its close puzzled him. Under the influences of his
aroused feelings had his face expressed more than mere sympathy?
Had her strong intuition, that was like a second sight, interpreted
his heart more clearly than he had been able to understand it himself
as yet? Reason and judgement, his privy council, had already begun
to advise him to win if possible this unselfish maiden, who with
a divine alchemy transmuted her shadows into sunshine for others,
and often suggested the thought, if she can do this in sorrow, how
inexpressibly happy she might make you and your aged father and
mother if you could first find out in some way how to make her
happy.
Indeed, so clear a case did these counsellors make out, that conscience
added her authoritative voice also, and assured him that he would
be false to himself and his future did he not, to the utmost, avail
himself and his future did he not, to the utmost, avail himself
of the opportunity of winning one whose society from the first had
been an inspiration to better thoughts and better living.
Until this evening his heart had remained sluggish. Sweet and
potent as her voice had been, it had not penetrated to the "holy
of holies" within his soul. But had not her low sad tones echoed
there to-night in the half involuntary confidence she had given
him?
In his deep sympathy, in the answering feeling evoked by her strong
but repressed emotion, he thought his heart had been stirred to
its depths, and that henceforth its chief desire would be to banish
the sorrowful memories typified to her mind by the black clouds
above him. Had his face revealed this impulse of his heart before
he had been fully conscious of it himself? Was it an unwelcome
discovery, that she so hastily fled from it? Or had she been only
startled--her maidenly reserve shrinking from the first fore-shadowing
of the supreme request that she should unveil the mysteries of her
life to one who but now had been a stranger? He did not know. He
felt he scarcely understood her or himself; but he was conscious
of a hope that both might meet their happy fate in each other.
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