Ethics -- Fiction; Religion and sociology -- Fiction; Upper class families -- Fiction
There was no gainsaying her. What can be done with a lady who will not
recognize that morality is not discussed, and that personalities are
tabooed save between intimates. Hilda was a personage as well as a
Tartar. Laws, conventions, usages--to all these she would conform when
it pleased her. She would have made an admirable inquisitorial judge,
and quite as admirable a sick nurse. A rare criminal lawyer, likewise,
was wasted in her. She was one of those individuals, I perceived, whose
loyalties dominate them; and who, in behalf of those loyalties, carry
chips on their shoulders.
“It is a long time that I have been wanting to meet you,” she informed
me. “You are smart.”
I smiled, yet I was inclined to resent her use of the word, though I
was by no means sure of the shade of meaning she meant to put into it.
I had, indeed, an uneasy sense of the scantiness of my fund of humour to
meet and turn such a situation; for I was experiencing, now, with her,
the same queer feeling I had known in my youth in the presence of Cousin
Robert Breck--the suspicion that this extraordinary person saw through
me. It was as though she held up a mirror and compelled me to look at my
soul features. I tried to assure myself that the mirror was distorted. I
lost, nevertheless, the sureness of touch that comes from the conviction
of being all of a piece. She contrived to resolve me again
into conflicting elements. I was, for the moment, no longer the
self-confident and triumphant young attorney accustomed to carry all
before him, to command respect and admiration, but a complicated being
whose unity had suddenly been split. I glanced around the table at
Ogilvy, at Dickinson, at Ralph Hambleton. These men were functioning
truly. But was I? If I were not, might not this be the reason for the
lack of synthesis--of which I was abruptly though vaguely aware between
my professional life, my domestic relationships, and my relationships
with friends. The loyalty of the woman beside me struck me forcibly as
a supreme trait. Where she had given, she did not withdraw. She had
conferred it instantly on Maude. Did I feel that loyalty towards a
single human being? towards Maude herself--my wife? or even towards
Nancy? I pulled myself together, and resolved to give her credit for
using the word “smart” in its unobjectionable sense. After all; Dickens
had so used it.
“A lawyer must needs know something of what he is about, Mrs. Scherer,
if he is to be employed by such a man as your husband,” I replied.
Her black eyes snapped with pleasure.
“Ah, I suppose that is so,” she agreed. “I knew he was a great man when
I married him, and that was before Mr. Nathaniel Durrett found it out.”
“But surely you did not think, in those days, that he would be as big
as he has become? That he would not only be president of the Boyne Iron
Works, but of a Boyne Iron Works that has exceeded Mr. Durrett's wildest
dreams.”
She shook her head complacently.
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