“I should, indeed, if I liked him. If I didn’t, I’m afraid I shouldn’t,”
said Ferris; but he saw that his levity jarred upon her. “Come, Miss
Vervain, you’re not going to look at those fat monks and sleek priests
in the procession to-morrow as so many incorporate tragedies, are you?
You’ll spoil my pleasure if you do. I dare say they’ll be all of them
devout believers, accepting everything, down to the animalcula in the
holy water.”
“If _you_ were that kind of a priest,” persisted the girl, without
heeding his jests, “what should you do?”
“Upon my word, I don’t know. I can’t imagine it. Why,” he continued,
“think what a helpless creature a priest is in everything but his
priesthood--more helpless than a woman, even. The only thing he could
do would be to leave the church, and how could he do that? He’s in the
world, but he isn’t of it, and I don’t see what he could do with it,
or it with him. If an Italian priest were to leave the church, even the
liberals, who distrust him now, would despise him still more. Do
you know that they have a pleasant fashion of calling the Protestant
converts apostates? The first thing for such a priest would be exile.
But I’m not supposably the kind of priest you mean, and I don’t think
just such a priest supposable. I dare say if a priest found himself
drifting into doubt, he’d try to avoid the disagreeable subject, and,
if he couldn’t, he’d philosophize it some way, and wouldn’t let his
skepticism worry him.”
“Then you mean that they haven’t consciences like us?”
“They have consciences, but not like us. The Italians are kinder people
than we are, but they’re not so just, and I should say that they don’t
think truth the chief good of life. They believe there are pleasanter
and better things. Perhaps they’re right.”
“No, no; you don’t believe that, you know you don’t,” said Florida,
anxiously. “And you haven’t answered my question.”
“Oh yes, I have. I’ve told you it wasn’t a supposable case.”
“But suppose it was.”
“Well, if I must,” answered Ferris with a laugh. “With my unfortunate
bringing up, I couldn’t say less than that such a man ought to get out
of his priesthood at any hazard. He should cease to be a priest, if it
cost him kindred, friends, good fame, country, everything. I don’t see
how there can be any living in such a lie, though I know there is.
In all reason, it ought to eat the soul out of a man, and leave him
helpless to do or be any sort of good. But there seems to be something,
I don’t know what it is, that is above all reason of ours, something
that saves each of us for good in spite of the bad that’s in us. It’s
very good practice, for a man who wants to be modest, to come and live
in a Latin country. He learns to suspect his own topping virtues, and
to be lenient to the novel combinations of right and wrong that he sees.
But as for our insupposable priest--yes, I should say decidedly he ought
to get out of it by all means.”
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