And then the house grew still, except for those light, almost
stealthy movements in the next room. Finally they, too, ceased. It
was after ten o’clock, and Hilda’s work was done, when she suddenly
realized that she should have taken off her riding clothes and
packed them in the trunk. Well, it was locked, and strapped; they’d
have to go in the bag now. She gave one last look around, to be sure
she had forgotten nothing, then went to the window. That
resurrection plant Maybelle had said she’d give her when she went
home; she wanted it; the queer things didn’t grow over on the plains
of Lame Jones County. Yet—she didn’t like to open the door and ask.
Probably Maybelle was already asleep. She leaned out and looked;
that other window beside hers was dark, and there sat the little
plant in its bowl. Hilda made a long arm, reached around and
transferred it to her own sill. She emptied the water in which it
had grown green, and left it to dry out so that it would be ready to
carry away in the morning.
Through all the flame and rush of her, the thought of Pearse had
never been absent from her a moment. At first there was a desperate,
irrational idea that she would see him before she left. Then, as the
mere physical work began to clear her mind, she knew that she
couldn’t do this. She’d have to write. After that, as she moved
quietly, swiftly to and fro, her eyes went continually to the little
table where pens and paper lay, her letter to Pearse forming itself
in her mind. She wanted him to know that, if it had seemed possible,
she would have stayed here as he asked her to. She must beg him to
come over to the Sorrows. No—she shook her head above the dress she
was folding—hadn’t been able to do a thing with him any of the times
when he was right there. It—crowding paper into slipper toes—it was
different now. She’d say—she’d say—
Everything done, she went over and sat down. The sheet before her,
the pencil in her hand, she sat a long time staring, not seeing it.
The furious activity of her moments of packing and getting ready,
the hot anger that had sustained them, were gone. Cold doubts
huddled around the edge of her mind; they clamored for attention.
Suppose Pearse wouldn’t come over to the Sorrows? Suppose he changed
back into that old Pearse she had known, who could be hard and
indifferent? If she was here— When she could see him— But she was
risking all in going away and trusting to a letter—
She finally began, wrote rapidly for a while, stopped, frowned at
what she had written, tore it up, and sat thinking. This whole round
of action she repeated several times. Then in desperation she dashed
down a few lines, signed, folded them, got them into an envelope—put
her head down on the table and began to cry.
It wasn’t noisy grief, just the slow tears of exhaustion. She must
have cried herself to sleep.
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